today again...erp and a strong feeling that it somehow arousel me and creates adrenaline, and the longer I expose myself to the thoughts, the more wild and detailed the images in my head become, accompanied by the feeling that I like reality as well...
Is anyone else going through this or is it just me? I have less and less confidence that it's OCD..
So when you start exposing yourself First hour or first day or first week depence on human Will be the worst that it ever was But after it will slowly calm on its own Without this knowledge you cant beat it Now, you know, when thoughts arrives in the most Horrible way It is working!
@Mrcino 1408 I've been doing it for almost 4 months now, it's still wild and every day it seems more alive and real, or it finds some new way to add details to it... I'm just wondering if it's just me and if I actually have ocd...
@Anonimus ME🫥 Probably you are doing some small Compulsions, you think you ignore the thought but even if you answer yourself to that thought is a Compulsion You watched harry potter 1 When they are trying to get rid of the devil snare(Plant that eats people) but the more they fight the worse it gets... As soon as they let go... It stoppes This is almost identical
@Mrcino 1408 so possible. while I'm doing the exercises, I wait for the feeling to subside, to somehow feel okay with it, but if it doesn't happen and there remains such a feeling as if it's real, as if I want it, I feel like arousal to it, to those images in my head, I feel shaken... and I wonder if it's real ocd..,.it's so detailed, the longer I do erp it becomes more detailed..
@Anonimus ME🫥 I think you should do immediately, without waiting, maybe someone from the therapists here can assure you that you are doing Compulsions still, maybe unconsciousnly But i wouldn t wait i would just Hug the feeling Hug it, Accept it, say its great. And then when brain realise is it It will be different
@Mrcino 1408 I'm afraid of it. I'm afraid to stay in that feeling without analysis and questions because it seems like it's true..like it's a fantasy..it's very scary to have pocd and inceset ocd..
@Anonimus ME🫥 So you just confirmed that you do not do erp properly I understand you, dont have to explain 😂 we are all the same But maybe... You should try for a couple hours Say to yourself, okay Next 5 thoughts, I am going to let go immediately, not even engage!
@Mrcino 1408 hmm looks like i'm doing them after all! I was not very aware! I swear, I'm so afraid that I'll experience some kind of arousal that you have no idea...actually yes, I'm looking for the right answer and when there isn't one I'm down, if I feel my groin and I have a picture in my mind of how I touch myself on it, and I get it as an urge, I go to the doom
@Anonimus ME🫥 I always get Groin, but that is actually Anxiety, and your whole self just concetrates on your groin, and then even a slightly move its consider OH IT MEANS I WANT I JUST GET" EXCITED" NO! Actually you felt disgust! I had them, and simply i just learn t that it is Normal and it never attacked me! Mayve work on this thought: That is anxiety and it means nothing, just my body responses to anxiety. And keep on remembering that! Until it lay in your brain after a while. It will be better!
@Mrcino 1408 that's right, plus, I feel arousal in my brain, that I like it, and I get a picture of me pleasuring myself on it and I get stuck there, because there is no real feeling.. I don't feel disgusted, except that I am disgusted with myself for thinking at all about that... i can't figure out it's anxiety..
does it also happen to you that during exposure to erp you can imagine that act and scene in detail, and feel some confused excitement that leaves you stressed because it is hard to believe that it is part of OCD, it seems so real! When i can imagine it in detail and feel it like i can actually get arousel about it.
This morning I woke up and the first thing I had was a sex scene, ocd topic, of course, and a feeling of some urge, as if I was being driven by adrenaline and it really turned me on...it lasted a short time, I didn't analyze it much. As soon as I woke up, I was left with the feeling that it was real... anyone else?
today's exposure exercise. I look at the face of a person I have sexual thoughts about and I feel that as soon as I can connect that face with sex I am attracted to it, and I feel like I can touch my self on sexual way while looking at that face, and I can imagine it and get it as an urge..it seems like I am stopping myself because it is horrible, not that I don't want to... I get stuck a lot with this and I don't know how to get out...I can't...
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