Scrupulosity, Islam

i had these thoughts for a bit when i was like a bit younger and it would always leave me disorientated or i would go through derealization, i want you to know that it gets better and i promise Allah knows your intentions and what you are going through. your brain latches onto weird things and it gets better okay :((

Salam Alaikum, friends, I wanted to share a thought that might help anyone wrestling with faith, especially if you have OCD and find it hard to accept God’s existence purely through logic. Think of it this way: On one end, there are facts—things we can directly see, touch, or measure, like the sun rising in the east. On the other end, there’s fiction—ideas that can’t be verified by our senses or logic, like fairy tales. Between these two is faith. Faith isn’t something you can always prove with your senses, but it’s also not pure fantasy. It lives in the gray area where logic, intuition, and experience meet. It’s about trusting in something you can’t fully see, but can sense or reason is true. For those of us with OCD, this “gray area” can be incredibly uncomfortable. Our minds crave certainty and concrete proof, and faith—by its nature—asks us to accept some uncertainty. That’s hard, and it’s okay to admit that. But remember: Just because you struggle to find 100% intellectual certainty doesn’t mean your faith isn’t real or valid. Your intuition and the logical signs pointing to God’s existence are meaningful. Faith doesn’t require absolute proof; it’s about trust, even when your mind demands more. So, don’t be too hard on yourself. Wanting certainty is part of OCD, not a failure of your faith. You’re not alone in this struggle, and your sincere search for understanding is itself a sign of a thoughtful, faithful heart. I hope this brings you some comfort and perspective. May peace and clarity be with you!

I seriously wish religion came easy for me man. It makes me so upset that I cannot find comfort in something that brings so much peacefulness for other people.

It sounds incredibly distressing when OCD seems to attack your core beliefs, especially something as fundamental as faith. Many people find that OCD targets what matters most to them, creating intense doubt even when the desire to believe is strong. If you’d like additional support, feel free to book a free call with our NOCD team. We’d be happy to share more information and explore ways to help. No one has to live in fear of their own thoughts. Also here are some helpful resources: https://www.treatmyocd.com/what-is-ocd/common-fears/can-you-go-to-hell-if-you-have-evil-ocd-thoughts-a-christian-therapists-perspective https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/5-things-you-should-know-about-ocd-from-a-therapist-with-ocd/ https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/colts-braden-smith-scrupulosity-ocd/