the feeling during intimacy with my partner, and just when it's a nice moment, what?! I find vivid thoughts and scenes and it seems that I want them and that they stimulate me... I'm going crazy
It's all OCD!! I'm so sorry you're going through this. Do you mind to look at my most recent post and give me your opinion?
@Anonymous2122 glad but i can't find them.. I'll look now! I'm also sorry that you are also going through ocd...thanks for your support..it's very hard to believe that ocd is coming
@Anonymous2122 don't see them.. maybe they contain some forbidden words, so it's banned..
@Anonimus ME🫥 If I comment here, can you respond back to it?
Ok yes sure
@Anonimus ME🫥 Before I write this, I will say I had a therapy appointment and told my therapist about this and she said I was fine. And that it was all OCD. However, I'm questioning it still. I've not been getting much sleep, and about a week ago I woke up to my daughter's either foot or knee resting on my bottom. I didn't think much of it because she flops around all night in her sleep. However, I had an intrusive thought come about to move my legs to make her foot graze my bottom. Instead of ignoring the thought, I moved my legs which caused that to happen and made me have an unwanted groinal sensation. I didn't even think twice about it and moved my legs which made her graze my bottom. But after the fact I automatically began FREAKING out and ruminating like crazy. I couldn't sleep the rest of the night and was terrified I was the monster I've always worried I was. I would NEVER hurt my daughter. Never in a million years. So now I'm ruminating as to why this happened. I feel so guilty as a mom and wonder why this happened... I'm a good mother until this happened now I feel terrible and it's hard to even wipe my daughters bottom since. Someone please give me advice. I just need some hope because I feel so guilty... I'm so scared and sad about all this.
@Anonimus ME🫥 Sorry I know it's a long comment.
@Anonimus ME🫥 Sorry again. I may just go ahead and delete it; I realize I shouldn't have sought reassurance but sometimes I just need it honestly.
@Anonymous2122 personally had similar experiences where the brain says that I did something monstrous, but in fact I did nothing like that..just like you..OCD tells you that because the anxiety caused some sensations, not reality. Our brain is constantly being tested even when we are not aware of it (probably it happens to me during intimacy as well), and since that is what we are afraid of, then it gives us the feeling that it is real and that we have done something terrible. You really have nothing to worry about, not a single monster is aware of it or cares. And you're probably a wonderful mother, but you just have OCD! That is my most honest opinion. You're fine and it's fine. You didn't do anything, but the OCD that constantly analyzes and looks for an answer that doesn't exist...
@Anonymous2122 like all of us..
@Anonimus ME🫥 Thank you SO much!!! I'm sorry for jumping on your post to ask for reassurance, but I'm just having a hard time.
@Anonymous2122 thank you, it also helps me to know that I am not alone and that others have experiences like mine... I really mean it and so does your therapist..try to get some sleep and maybe consider some drug therapy for a while...you'll be fine
@Anonimus ME🫥 Thank you so much!! I just did what my thought told me to which scares me
@Anonymous2122 you didn't do it, you tested it! Just because it scares you that it's true, your brain exaggerates and represents something else!
TMI!! Hey everyone, I was coming on here to ask if anyone has experienced this before! Im in an amazing relationship with my boyfriend so in this post I wanted to ask this question because this is how it felt to me! I remembered earlier today I was watching this movie, etc. and there was this spicy scene in it (iykyk) and it got me feeling some sort of way. This has happened before especially if I’ve played a game or watched a show with some content like this. I felt really in the mood and started to imagine my boyfriend and I doing those things together and I sort of decided to (yanno, the m word) hopefully everyone understands because I just don’t like saying the word😭, but I found that every time I do that, that’s when my ocd is at its worst/peak. Every time my mind has tried to convince me I’ve cheated, when I self pleasure. I get in the mood if I think of my boyfriend and I doing those things I see in movies, shows etc, and that’s when I’ll do it, But literally I realized after I’ve done that at times my ocd is at its worst because my mind will attack me constantly asking “Is this cheating? Does this make me a horrible girlfriend?” If I self pleasure, I also want to add that I mentioned it to my boyfriend at one time and he told me it wasn’t at all and that everything is okay, but constantly I feel guilty for it and extremely horrible. Just wanted to see if anyone else has experienced this?
What irritates me the most is that during intimacy with my husband, it happens that OCD puts an image and scene in my head, my sister or someone for whom my OCD is attached and it's literally as if that intimacy is happening with that person, and it seems real that I can and it's exciting! I'm working on ERP during that, but it's still hard to digest... I don't know if it's the same for you?
And what is happening...let's say I come across a video of that person and then I stop the part where it triggers me and I deliberately imagine images of a sexual type, and if I don't feel anything, I look again, as if I want it or I have the urge to imagine it, i.e. I feel the need, and if I feel something or get a feeling in my groin and I feel like I fall into despair?
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