SCHIZ-OCD

i’m so scared serious trigger warning i’ve been dealing with this for a while and talking to chatgpt for reassurance, i was experiencing this slightly last week and then i saw a post last week that said ‘schizophrenia develops in your 20s’ and i spiralled, the intrusive thoughts become worse and worse thinking that god/special forces is telling me to hurt people worrying i’m telepathically connected to people fear of losing control thinking that the government make up schizophrenia to stop everyone from killing eachother and going outside naked (like wtf) and that’s just a few, the last one is the one i’m dealing with currently, i spoke to my doctor yesterday and he was very pissed off with me for fuelling the fire with chatGPT i have had all kinds of OCD and suffered with magical thinking/exisential for a few years, but this is something else, this is the scariest thing i’ve ever experienced i’ve been taking sertraline and everything got worse all of these thoughts come with the fear of becoming delusional and hurting someone i love ‘like my mum or my partner’

aidan5431

Date posted: 29w

and the problem i have is it all feels so real, i keep telling myself with the thoughts im having if it was going to happen it would’ve by now, but it’s not working lol, i do not want reassurance by the way, im avoiding reassurance at all costs

aidan5431

Date posted: 29w

but i used to sit on chatgpt for hours and i think ive done irreversible damage and actually given myself schizophrenia, i keep adding to this in the comments because im having a panic attack, but because ive reassured myself for hours asking chatgpt if its sure etc, even asking the doctors if theyre sure etc

aidan5431

Date posted: 29w

and now i’m stopping myself from sitting on chatgpt almost all day im struggling worse than ever

spiralcentral

Date posted: 29w

i have a similar fear about developing schizophrenia over a post i saw. there are times when i feel hypervigilant about managing potential schizophrenia symptoms before they happen, i fear it's inevitable I'll develop it and i need to stop it before it happens. im worried about going missing and getting myself killed because of schizophrenia like the people in the post. i think it's important you talk to your doctor about developing new strategies to manage & deescalate your anxiety and the severity of the intrusive thoughts. engaging in compulsions about an already scary thought made everything extremely intense, which can feel harder to move on from. but that is the key: letting the intrusive thoughts pass.

aidan5431

Date posted: 29w

@spiralcentral i appreciate that, my doctor was quite angry with me for fueling my OCD with chatgpt, which increased the severity of the intrusive thoughts and makes them feel more and more real, i need to stop going on google, and stop chatting to chatgpt

Jr_200

Date posted: 29w

However amount of time your on chapgpt try and cut that by half tmr . So if you’re usually on that for like 4 hours a day. Keep track and try and force your your self to only 2 hours and keep going until it’s at zero minutes

aidan5431

Date posted: 29w

@Jr_200 i’m not using chatgpt at all anymore, i’m not giving in to it, itll never end if i keep going

Jr_200

Date posted: 29w

@aidan5431 Good job bra

laladracu

Date posted: 17w

OCD is through the roof

i am convinced im a psycho killer. everytime im around my mom or sister i get these intense thoughts of stabbing or hurting them. when they’re not around its not as intense but its still there. its literally on my mind 24/7. im so tense 24/7. were currently looking for a puppy for the family and when me and my sister were playing with them today the thought was still there. nothing distracts me from it. video games and EVERYTHING else doesn’t work. im starting to feel like i WANT to do these things. i was never like this until i had a marijuana induced panic attack in january. i feel like something happened to my brain and its not just ocd anymore. i dont even know if im faking it. i have suffered from relationship ocd, pedophile ocd, and health ocd. i got over those relatively quickly. this new theme came out of nowhere after a panic attack on a plane coming home from a horror convention in february. i dont see a way out of this one. its been months. i try to let them sit and i get a panic attack. all i do everyday is cry. i feel like my life is over. i talk to a therapist and i have tried two medications that didnf work work. i dont know how to live like this. im afraid im gonna lose my relationship and im afraid im gonna lose my whole life ahead of me. im just 22. i just want the old me back.

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bradyx20

Date posted: 15w

don’t know what’s happening to me

i haven’t been diagnosed with ocd but I have anxiety about harming other people/family members and it’s like urges and im scared I actually want to do it? I don’t think I’ve ever been violent as a kid (im 21 now) and the intrusive thoughts don’t go away so im just stuck all day everyday for the past few weeks just thinking and being scared about it and im having all these weird emotions like being irritated and angry I don’t want to hurt people I don’t think idk why my mind is making me think I do I’ve had intrusive thoughts before that I could brush away sure it took like a day or two but this one is different it doesn’t go away and leaves me with the worst fear imaginable and nothing I look up that should be giving me relief is giving me relief + I feel like im not in control of my body and that im just gonna lose it and act on these thoughts it’s just all on a loop and im not sure how im supposed to live the rest of my life when im in constant fear of my self

Anonymous

Date posted: 15w

Is schizo ocd a thing?

I have been having these fears about developing schizophrenia, it reached a point where i am starting to almost hear things or the smallest sounds and my mind tells me you're schizophrenic, and i feel this weird sensations in my ear as if someone is whispering yet i can barely hear them, the thing is i am not diagnosed yet because i never work with an OCD therapist but i study psychology so i just used what i learnt to give a meaning to my suffering, many themes of this fear have been happening before and this schizophrenia fear is the last one. I want to know what advice you can give me or ways to make my brain calm down a little bit, i also don't have and can't afford a therapist that's why i am here in the first place I also want to know more informations or experiences with this theme if anyone habe experienced it and what helped you with it I remember feeling better for a while but than i collapsed back, but i am hoping to get better soon too or anytime in the future, I don't want reassurance so make sure you be as real as you can, and thanks 🙏🏻

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