- Username
- Natalie
- Date posted
- 24w ago
Contamination OCD
Does anyone feel like when they go to the toilet, when you have to pull your clothes up with dirty hands you are transferring toilet germs onto your clothes?
Does anyone feel like when they go to the toilet, when you have to pull your clothes up with dirty hands you are transferring toilet germs onto your clothes?
I have this verbatim. Or if I touch a sink handle after I've watched my hands. This type of contamination doesn't seem to bother me as much as others for some reason, but you are definitely not alone here. šš
@DaniRae47 I donāt know if this is a trigger but I find on a mixer tap I just use a tiny bit of soap on the end of it (where Iām going to turn it off) and wash it then I feel ok to touch it after Iāve washed my hands. I know it not really addressing the ocd but I find itās a bridge until I can turn it off properly. Thank you ā¤ļø
I expose myself to a lot of things with contamination OCD and overcome those compulsions. But even when I didn't have OCD, I didn't touch my clothes before washing them. I touched my clothes with clean hands in the toilet. I don't like to touch the handle of the toilet and then touch my clothes, so I think that before and after my OCD showed up, I had the same opinion about that.
@Anonymous - Do you just wash your hands first then pull your clothes up? Iāve been using wet wipes to wipe my hands then pull my clothes up then wash my hands.
@Natalie Yes, I do. However, if I use my own toilet, I donāt wash my hands when pulling up my clothes. In someone elseās house, I wash my hands. If I am in a public restroom, I use toilet paper to open the door and keep my hands clean before pulling my clothes up. I think we have some performance for ourselves, and if we donāt get anxiety for that, itās okay to do something like that. Some people get so much anxiety in the toilet, but I donāt get anxiety. I just like being clean in this case, and I had this performance before my OCD, and I think it doesnāt bother me.
@Natalie This also sounds good in my opinion.
@Anonymous - Oh ok so itās something youāve always done really. Mine just set in when my ocd got bad. I never used to think too much about touching my clothes. I always had a thing where Iād leave like the button and zip of your trousers until after washing hands but now itās pulling them up is the problem. My ocd is centred around using the bathroom you see. Itās my main problem.
@Natalie I see. But you're right, when I didn't have OCD, I didn't think about that too, but I remember that without stress, I have done it like a habit. I was a tidy girl, but I didn't wash too much or think about everything others did or anything. After OCD showed up, things changed. But don't worry if you expose yourself enough to the recommendation your therapist gave you, you will eventually be able to touch your clothes without stress or at least not care whether you touch your clothes or not, just like before. Just you have to let anxiety pass and Tell yourself, "I can be like my old self."
@Anonymous - Thank you for your helpful words! š
@Natalie You're welcome. š I think you know because you working with a therapist, you shouldn't review in your mind when exposing yourself. I mean, avoid mental complications.
@Anonymous - Yes she just kind of wants me to do it and not think about it and carry on as normal. Itās just so hard as I just would feel like Iām putting germs onto my clothes. I have the wet wipes at the moment as a bridge but she wants me to stop using them soon. But I just canāt get past the transfer thought we call it where you feel as though you are putting germs onto your clothes. I feel as though maybe I should just keep the wipes. How do find contamination affects you, if you donāt mind me asking?
Thank you for the link. Thatās great progress! Thank you! Yes I hope to get back to how I was before. Iāve always had ocd since 10 but hidden it until it got so severe 6 years ago I had to tell someone. No I live in the uk so I see a therapist on our national health service. But came across Nocd and thought it would be a great place for support and maybe get to know people.
You're welcome. I was in a severe situation too. I thought water in the bathroom or from cleaning dishes before put in dishwasher splashed on me, and I felt gross. I thought the walls or any items in the bathroom that came close to my clothes or body. It was deliberate. I thought whwn other breathing can make me sick. Now I don't afraid of get illness but still in some of things I have compulsions I feel contamination without afraid of germs it's stupid Yes indeed , I agree.How many months do you use thrapy? My program was 12 werk or 3 months
Although I know, we can't control others or anything around us, we must learn to live with uncertainty. We shouldn't overthink everything we see around us. With enough practice, we can overcome the OCD and complaints we still have.
@Anonymous - Yes you are right, we need to live with the uncertainty. There was a time I managed it well. So I know I can probably get back to that.
@Natalie Dr. Joseph Murphy says in his book, The Power of Your Subconscious Mind, that we are creatures of habit. By practicing enough, we can succeed at anything, just like driving, swimming, or playing music. Also, Matt Codde said in his program that we have practiced OCD so much that it's time to practice ERP. By practicing enough and exposing ourselves, we can break the cycle of OCD. It is important that we believe in ourselves and believe that it will work.
Do you mean when I got it or how dose affect my life?
@Anonymous - How does it affect your life? Iāve been struggling for 6 years with it since it got really severe.
@Anonymous - I hadn't had contamination OCD, but a year or maybe more before COVID started, it was so mild I didn't know it was OCD. I just felt different and sensitive, but with COVID, it completely showed up and got severe until my life became smaller. I just thought nothing was clean. I washed my clothes every day, sometimes two or three times. Anything annoyed me, and I felt disgusted by everything. It was severe for me too. Then I started to Google and found Matt Codde on YouTube, and then for a while, I used the Unstuck app to manage my fears and find my core fear I still sometimes use it ,then used 12-week program of Matt Codde .
I isolated myself. Washing my hands too much, as well as my clothes, and coming into contact with furniture or brushes, was all annoying to me.I couldn't go out and had so much anxiety like all the time. I lived in a clean timezone of my room and I couldn't touch without washing hands
Sorry to hear that, so you are feeling better now yes? I havenāt heard of Matt codde. Il look him up. I was changing clothes everytime I went to the bathroom. And at the beginning would restrict fluids and only allow myself to go to the bathroom once a day because my hand washing was so severe. But luckily now Iāve got that under better control and also stay in the same clothes.
You can find him on YouTube, Spotify, Apple Music, or his platform: https://www.restoredminds.com Yes, I am so much better, but there are still some compulsions I should eliminate. I don't wash my hands too much or take a shower every time or change my clothes too much anymore. Even though I wash my clothes two or three times a week, in the past, I washed them every day, sometimes two or three times a day, which was excessive. I can imagine how hard it can be not to go to the toilet because of those rituals, but I know you can succeed because you know what life is like without contamination OCD, and you were in that position before. You can get there again. Is your therapist from NOCD?
Iām the same if Iām near anything like the toilet, sink, bathroom bin I feel dirty. Any proximity to them, bathroom door handles and light switches too. For me Iām not afraid of getting ill Iām afraid of the toilet germs which therapist says is micro detail, if you canāt see it then thereās nothing to worry about. Iāve been in therapy for over a year with my current therapist. I was private at the beginning for 3 years. Do you live in the uk?
Il have a look at his book too! I guess when you do something over and over again the anxiety does start to diminish.
Possibly tmi but one thing iāve been really struggling with lately is using the bathroom and I mean #2. It seems like one of the worst germs to me. First of all I wipe and wipe and wipe more than I assume a person without contamination ocd does but I feel like I must know that its completely clean. Also, I then feel that when I shower and wash down there that my hands are contaminated and I need to wash them multiple times and I spend way too much time doing so. I know this is abnormal but I have trouble understanding how someone without contamination ocd would deal with this situation. I wish I could watch the process of how I should wipe and then how to wash that area in the shower. If anyone else has struggled with this, what did you do to improve? I feel like I donāt know what a ānormalā routine would be that is considered clean enough.
Contamination OCD sent me spiralling once before and now i have gotten into a new relationship it has come back. Bodily fluids came in contact with mine and I'm so scared of HIV even though i don't think he has it. I think this is all OCD, because last time, my fear of catching the disease was irrational, doctors and my therapist told me it was too. The uncertainty is horrible right now. I thought I could handle sex and everything but OCD won't let up. Any thoughts? I like this guy but OCD is scaring me so much and taking all the fun away
Hi everyone! Unfortunately, I am an individual who loves cooking but also suffers from contamination OCD. This really impacts the enjoyment I get from cooking and has recently been stopping me from cooking all together. Any tips or similar experience appreciated (:
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