Can anyone relate?

do dreams really mean anything? did me dreaming about breaking up with my boyfriend mean that I should, especially since I've been freaking out about the possibility in real life? or does it mean that the relationship should end? is it some type of sign since it's the second time but the first time was while ago? is it just my subconscious creating a story based off my fears and worries that I have while awake? but does it Mena that those fears and worries are coming from a place of reality and something that should happen???

Does anyone else feel like their partner would break up with them for every gross thought they have attached to ocd, so you distance yourself and now you’re overwhelmed by everything in your relationship and feel like you made the spark go away/ don’t know what to do anymore. I’m so stressed with school too I don’t know whether to take a break in the relationship to better myself to meet their needs.

i don’t know what to do anymore. i love my boyfriend but i also feel so guilty because i critcism him in my mind and im really controlling and i know that and im pretty sure if i really loved him i wouldn’t be thinking the things i do about him sometimes i wish he was smarter or did certain things and i hate it is it bad that i think that? part of me thinks i should just give up and find someone perfect and wait for the real one but i also love him and he’s my best friend and i don’t want to lose him but at the same time i want to break up with him because sometimes certain things don’t feel right and just the fact that i have cirticisms about him makes me feel terrible and he’s so so perfect and sweet and i think he deserves someone better and i really don’t know what to do please help i wanted it to be him i did and it just feels like something’s going to happen to us like i’m going to break up with him but at the same time i don’t want to but i don’t want to feel like this forever i wish i didn’t judge him because he’s perfect and i planned my future with him but i also can’t stand having all these thoughts and it’s not right to him either and i love him but i don’t even know what to do anymore i want to be with him forever but i want this to go away and i wish he was different but i also know i can’t make anyone change and it’s bad that i don’t love him just the way he is? shouldn’t he deserve someone who loves him just the way he is i just feel so awful and sick this is going to break my heart it feels like i should break up but at the same time i start crying as soon as i think about losing him please help im paralyzed and sick and losing my mind