Does anyone ever feel like they are “reaching” for the thoughts almost to check it shows up? It makes it feel like it’s intentional but if is very much not because I believe the content of the thought, rather it is almost a sick need to have the thought even though I don’t want the thought. Does that make any sense?
I don’t necessarily do rituals to not think about it. But I’ll just be going about my day having a good day not having bad thoughts then be like “you haven’t thought about that all day” then boom it’s in my head. So annoying
@asandefer Right and then it makes you wonder if you really were responsible all along
@asandefer THIS!!! same brother
This is me right now, too. I have repeated a thought so many times now, that if it's not there I'm expecting it to be.
Right. It makes me fear I’m going crazy when in reality I know I’m not. What seems to help me is reminding myself it’s ok to have a good day and it’s ok to not have bad thoughts. Like that’s normal you know. Cause sometimes it feels like normal is fighting off the bad thoughts
totally makes sense, and you're not alone in feeling this way. it's like your brain is playing a tricky game, wanting to check on those thoughts even when you don't want to. it's a tough spot to be in, but there's hope. 🌟 i'm actually dealing with a different ocd theme myself, but i've found a couple of apps that have been really helpful. one that's been a game changer is "unstuck ocd therapy tools." it's this cool app that gives you ai-personalized guidance and exercises right when you need them. my local ocd support group recommended it to me, and it's been super helpful for those in-the-moment needs. another one i've tried is "gg ocd," which is great for getting a handle on the basics of cbt for ocd through bite-sized learning modules. it's not as personalized and doesn't offer in-the-moment help like unstuck, but it's a good start if you're new to cbt. 📚
This is me too. I have to continually tell myself it’s ok to not have bad thoughts when it has been a while since I have. They try to work their way back in.
@asandefer Yeah I was lying in bed this morning and doing a mental ritual to not have the thought and it felt like I willed the unwanted thought. Even though I know I don’t believe it or want it? Has that happened to you?
Have you ever been feeling okay and then suddenly an old intrusive thought comes back but worse and you can’t seem to get past it as easily?
I can’t except that it was ocd this time because I WANTED to think this disgusting thought I didn’t have to but I let myself think it and I was not testing or checking because I know at that time I wanted it any time I feel a bit better it just feels wrong of course I hate the thought and don’t agree with it at all but at the time I wanted to have it I literally remember thinking at first “ no dont think that!” But still wanting to think it and then afterwards making an excuse in my head to think it because I wanted to and I feel so disgusted and scared of myself
Answer please. Does anyone else with intrusive thoughts feel like your addicted to them. Like I can't help but feel like I need to have these intrusive thoughts. Ik it sounds weird but I feel it's true. Like I keep getting blasphemous thoughts and I feel like I need to have them. I know I do not but I can't help but feel like I do. Can OCD do this to you?
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