What if it was never OCD

That doesn’t mean you don’t have OCD. You will ALWAYS have any mental illness. When you recover? That means it doesn’t affect your life.

Just because you recovered does not mean you never had OCD, you simply recovered from it or know how to deal with it.

Wouldn't you want to treat it?

I totally understand! My checking and other easy to notice compulsions are happening way less than a couple of years ago. So now my brain is questioning if it actually is OCD that I have..or maybe it's always been something else. Or I'll be thinking that whatever I'm experiencing maybe shouldn't require therapy anymore. Like..maybe I'm just lonely or something. So then I feel wrong for seeking therapy and like I'm wasting my therapist's time.

And if it's because I'm just lonely..I get scared to recover. If I'm recovered, then I for sure won't need therapy. And that means I won't have a therapist that I see weekly, and that would be even more lonely than I am now! Nonsense brain!

I think this is a very common fear with people with OCD. I think many people don’t do ERP because they are scared therapy will reveal the thoughts are true and that they don’t have OCD and have been in denial the whole time. This is a symptom of OCD. It likes to keep us trapped in a cycle of fear and make us miserable x