Tired

I am so tired. Im sitting here feeling the soreness of the back of my legs. I can feel everything. I am aware of everything. I cant help but think if anything is wrong with me right now medically. I am also a childhood cancer survivor so that in my past doesn’t help my case. My family is just now realizing I am ocd instead of just anxiety. I have to explain to them everything I have to do to calm down. I sleep with ice packs near just in case. I keep one on me every minute of the day. I keep my Apple Watch on and so tight it leaves a mark. I monitor my symptoms even if there isn’t any. I google my symptoms and read the bad things and then assume that is what’s wrong with me. My ex left me bc he couldn’t take it all. I have a great boyfriend who will talk to me and take care of me but it hurts. I just want to be normal.

Health Concern OCD

rooivy

Date posted: 19h

I have health OCD too and it really is debilitating. If I'm able to suggest something, maybe the apple watch should be taken away for a while, or if possible the health inputs disabled? I think it's a slippery slope to become a compulsion to check your vitals, I've been in similar situations before, and it just makes the cycle worse. I'm glad you have someone you're able to lean on though, that always makes a huge difference. You aren't alone in this, but I know those words only go so far, health OCD is deeply exhausting. 🫂

Sydloo

Date posted: 13h

@rooivy Even my calf’s are tender and sore. It could be because I lifted something really heavy the other day or the fact that I had a Charlie horse the other day. Idk im struggling right now and my family just thinks its anxiety

rooivy

Date posted: 13h

@Sydloo Another good thing I keep in mind is that bodies are gonna do stuff, it's not always bad, not always good, sometimes we just have "noise" that doesn't have a deeper or urgent meaning. A coping statement that helps me with health OCD is "discomfort does not equal danger" as I am often uncomfortable with physical sensations and my brain immediately will jump to worst case.

Sydloo

Date posted: 12h

@rooivy Yeah but my brain keeps saying pain = emergency. And it wont go away. Im trying really hard.

rooivy

Date posted: 12h

@Sydloo I know :( I understand. But you're doing it! You're living right now with the discomfort even if you're having a bad time handling it. You're stronger than you give yourself credit for.

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