Gender ocd

Hello! (F21) I have been having a bit of a hard battle with this for five months. It all started one morning in June. I have had many other ocd themes before but this is the worst . It started one morning with a thought “what if you’re bored of being a women” ever since this it lead me down are dark path. I question my gender from the time I wake up till I go to bed. It is very much effecting my quality of life. I am never happy anymore. I’ve always loved being a girl and felt extremely connected to my identity before this thought. If I’m not with friends or in class I sit and cry in my dorm all day. I just want to be the girl I was before all of this started I miss it so much. I absolutely love my body and the way I look but the constant gender questioning is ruining my life in so afraid I developed late onset gender dysphoria at 21. Especially after reading cis people don’t question their gender. I’m sorry if this is offensive or triggering to a home I just need help I want to be a girl. The girl I was before.

K1234567

Date posted: 2d

Unfortunately, articles that apply to non-OCD people are typically not very helpful for people with OCD. Because OCD people question literally everything so the ‘cis people don’t question their gender’ thing is definitely false because OCD people question everything no matter what. I have had this theme too but it’s much less common for me it likes comes up once a month only for a few hours then goes away. All I can say is the usual that you have to say ‘maybe I want to be a boy/girl, maybe I don’t, but I have to keep going along with my day anyways’ but I also know that this usually doesn’t help much if it’s your theme that you think about all the time saying that phrase probably won’t help much. All I can say is I hope you heal from it soon. If it bothers you all day every day you might have to consider therapy.

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Date posted: 2d

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Genna:)

Date posted: 21h

@Community AI Helper Yes

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Date posted: 21h

@Genna:) - Happy to share! One thing worth naming from what you wrote: reading up on whether cis people question their gender is itself a compulsion. Research, rumination, and reassurance-seeking all buy a few minutes of relief, and then hand the doubt more material to work with — which is a big part of why five months of questioning hasn't produced the certainty you're looking for. "Gender OCD: Signs, Symptoms, and Treatment" https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/transgender-ocd-symptoms-and-treatment Clinically reviewed by April Kilduff, MA, LCPC, this one speaks directly to the loop you described — how a single intrusive thought gets treated as evidence, why the problem is the search for certainty rather than the doubt itself, and how ERP helps people stop having to resolve every thought and feeling. "The Three R's: Research, Rumination, and Reassurance" https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/the-three-rs-research-rumination-and-reassurance Stacy Quick, LPC breaks down the invisible compulsions — the googling, the mental reviewing, the checking of how you feel about your body — that are easy to miss because they don't look like compulsions from the outside. Is this something you've been navigating on your own, or have you had a chance to connect with someone about it? 💬 Was this response helpful? Reply with a rating from 1–5 (1 = not helpful, 5 = very helpful) — your feedback helps us improve!

Genna:)

Date posted: 20h

@Community AI Helper I’ve told friends and family but that’s it I just really don’t want it to be real I want to be a girl

💜Cinderella💜

Date posted: Yesterday

Hey, you liked one of my posts and I wanted to tell you how pretty you are from your profile picture. So I clicked on your profile and here I am, it’s all gonna be ok. God made you as a beautiful woman!!!! He loves you. And I love you. If you ever want to talk just reach out 💜😊

Genna:)

Date posted: Yesterday

@💜Cinderella💜 I wish I was

💜Cinderella💜

Date posted: 23h

@💜Cinderella💜 But you don’t need to wish that, you are beautiful just as you are. I know that everyone says that and eventually it doesn’t mean anything to a person, but you really are beautiful. I have not had the same experience and I am in no way trying to make your experience any less meaningful, but I have had (and still have) thoughts that tell me I am not enough, that no one will ever love me as I am. But those thoughts are wrong. You are perfect just the way you are. This is kinda random but I have a song that has the lyrics in it that I am trying to convey. It is called 21st Century Girls and it is by BTS. I hope you like it, and like I said before i am always here if you need someone to talk to or just need someone who will listen.

Genna:)

Date posted: 22h

@💜Cinderella💜 Aww listened to it I love it it’s not that I don’t think I’m beautiful I’m praying that I’m an actual girl and not in denial :D thank you for making me feel good about myself you are amazing 🤍

💜Cinderella💜

Date posted: 22h

@Genna:) Ofc!! That’s what I am here for! I have another song if you are up to it! 😝 Life Goes on by BTS I will be praying for you too!

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