sorry another vent.

i’m so sorry about these vents but i just don’t know what’s wrong with me anymore. I wanna cry but i can’t even seem to get it out and i feel stupid because i’m questioning if i even have ocd, im undiagnosed right now btw. 2024-2025 i basically had intrusive thoughts and false memories every single day and it was a big problem to me as my older posts show. it’s been months since something has actually bothered me at the day time and i know that probably isn’t even how ocd works. I feel like why is it only bothering me at the night time. in the day time it’s just basic compulsions i don’t even know what’s actually wrong with me anymore and i promise im not asking for reassurance i just wish i was able to reach out for help but i’m so terrified. Thank you guys for responding to my posts i seriously appreciate it so much and again, i apologise for these constant vents, i feel like my situation is way less worse than other peoples so sometimes i feel odd about making these posts on here, its almost as if my ocd(if i do have it) is extremely mild if that can even happen.