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Recently, I had a thought in my head, what if my daughter got mixed up in the maternity hospital and supposedly it's not my daughter? You have no idea how much my heart broke from worries and fear. I love my daughter madly and such thoughts hurt me. If I could control other thoughts, cope with them myself, I couldn't handle this one. I started crying right in front of my husband from anxiety and from a panic attack. I went to my mother abroad for fear of recovering, I got a little distracted, came to my senses, then I came to my home. Everything was fine, I was absolutely happy in my family as always. But today this thought came to my mind again and I've been anxious since morning. I don't want to burst into tears again and tell this to my husband. My daughter is my photocopy, she definitely looks like me, after giving birth she was immediately brought to me, all the tags matched, they had my name on them, there are even photos and tags I keep. But how am I going to live with this obsessive thought? I don't know how to get rid of it (it's the worst thing that could have happened. I've had ocd for a long time, and there were different topics, but this one is the most terrible. What is more, I'm pregnant now and I can't be stressed. Help, what should I do and how can I prove to my brain that it's all nonsense?

JustAJesusLover

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 20h

I know it is so hard when you literally can’t do anything to make yourself feel better. But embrace the ‘not feeling better.’ That is how you get through it. OCD goes: huh. Why won’t she focus on me? I guess I’ll stop wasting my time. So much easier said than done, but I believe you can do this!!! Stay strong ♥️♥️♥️

tortuga017

Date posted: 20h

@JustAJesusLover Thank you very much! Once I failed, and I cried a lot, I put myself into a panic attack, compared the photos of the child, all the documents, everyone says that she is very similar to me, one face, but my brain still doubts. I don't know how to get rid of this thought, it seems that I need to solve it right now, otherwise it's a disaster. Otherwise I'll have panic attacks again and my family will fall apart because of me. I'm really scared, and I'm pregnant. God give me strength

JustAJesusLover

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 20h

Maybe she is my child, maybe not. You can do this!!! ♥️

tortuga017

Date posted: 20h

@JustAJesusLover I'm so afraid of this panic attack again, distancing myself from my most beloved child! I'm barely holding on. I thought I might buy a DNA test, but I already know the answer is that it will be 100 percent, and it won't even calm me down. I can't find a compulsion for myself

JustAJesusLover

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 20h

I’ll be praying for you ♥️

Anony1314

Date posted: 23w

Someone help me please

Please help me. I need support. I just need someone to be up front with me. Tell me the truth. I want to get past it all. I'm struggling STRUGGLING today. My mind is telling me I'm the only one who is dealing with something like this. Idk why I did my biggest fear. I was put on a new medication when this happened which caused me to spiral, my thoughts to be more often, and have insomnia. I have been diagnosed with POCD as well. I woke up in the middle of the night when my child was laying completely cross my chest. I was breathing and having groinal sensations. My mind told me that I assaulted her by this, and I was going to prison for it. My thoughts started going like this, "you're already bad might as well do something else", "no sense in stopping now" "you can finally do what you've always wanted", "what would you do if you could do anything to cause harm" So I had to think of what to do in the moment. The only thing I could think to do was move my elbow towards my child's groin. In the moment it felt like I really wanted to do this. I proceeded to do so, and my elbow touched her groin. I immediately told my child to move off me. I then went back to sleep. When I woke up, I began panicking, confessing to a family member what happened, and crying immensely. I feel like I failed as a mother. I'm in such distress since I started sleeping on the floor to avoid it from happening again, and I got off the medication. I'm so much better OCD wise since I got off the meds. I was the BEST mom months ago before this happened. The thoughts have always bothered me, and I was always scared I would give in and act on them. I'm living my worst nightmare. I feel alone. Felt so wanted in the moment and SO real. Ugh. Could someone just give me some support? (edited)

Anony1314

Date posted: 23w

Help please.Be honest please. I'm a struggling mom

Am I the P I was always scared to be? Or am I still the amazing mom I once was? I need support. I just need someone to be up front with me. Tell me the truth. I want to get past it all. My mind is telling me I'm the only one who is dealing with something like this. Idk why I did my biggest BIGGEST fear. I was put on a new medication when this happened which caused me to spiral, my thoughts to be more often, and have insomnia. I have been diagnosed with POCD as well. I woke up in the middle of the night when my child was laying completely cross my chest. I was breathing and having groinal sensations. My mind told me that I assaulted her by this, and I was going to prison for it. My thoughts started going like this, "you're already bad might as well do something else", "no sense in stopping now" "you can finally do what you've always wanted", "what would you do if you could do anything to cause harm" So I had to think of what to do in the moment. The only thing I could think to do was move my elbow towards my child's groin. In the moment it felt like I really wanted to do this. I proceeded to do so, and my elbow touched her groin. I immediately told my child to move off me. I then went back to sleep. When I woke up, I began panicking, confessing to a family member what happened, and crying immensely. I feel like I failed as a mother. I'm in such distress since I started sleeping on the floor to avoid it from happening again, and I got off the medication. I'm so much better OCD wise since I got off the meds. I was the BEST mom months ago before this happened. The thoughts have always bothered me, and I was always scared I would give in and act on them. I'm living my worst nightmare. I feel alone. Felt so wanted in the moment and SO real. Ugh. Could someone just give me some support?

POCD

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Date posted: 22w

Please help!!!

TW! please someone comment When I was 12 or 13 I used to babysit a little girl, she had a habit of keeping her hand in her diaper and was always touching herself, there was one point I was changing her diaper and noticed she was really red. I had separated her private parts and checked the inner area for signs of infection. She was okay, just some really really bad diaper rash. I know this is what happened yet my brain is trying to convince me that I hurt her, and that I wanted to do it, I know I would never hurt a child but with all the anxiety I feel when I think about it I'm starting to wonder if I did do it because I wanted to hurt her, I don't wanna be a p, I don't wanna hurt innocent children, I used to never have these thoughts but now I do and I'm so scared to tell my therapist as she hasn't diagnosed me with ocd yet. I don't want her to think I'm a p nor do I wanna hurt kids, but my brain keeps telling me that I do and that I'm just lying to myself and everyone around me, ik I would never do something that could harm a child but I keep getting these thoughts and their inappropriate and I just want them to stop, does anyone have any tips on how to help myself? I keep turning to my boyfriend for reassurance but ik that that's just a quick fix and that ill be spiraling about it again.Please help

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