I got a therapist appointment in about a week and I'm scared I will get misunderstood, or I feel like Im not telling enough details, I'm scared that I have something else. This week alone was so draining
Hey there.. What you’re experiencing is very very very common. I’ve dealt with anxiety and OCD in silence for decades, terrified of the intrusive thoughts and even more terrified that they meant something and that I’d have to utter them to a complete stranger. But, when these OCD therapists say that they’ve heard everything, please believe it. My thoughts that I thought were so weird and taboo turned out to be so common that my therapist didn’t even flinch. So, You’re in good company and have started the journey to understand just how common your experience is.
Hey i know how you feel completely. I had my first appointment and i had the same thoughts, especially about this theme. When talking about this theme with my therapist i thought id either be misunderstood or sent to jail. But its important to know your therapist is a therapist for a reason and is there to understand you. It’s also worth noting that when I had my first appointment I had my support system, which was my mom. I’d recommend that you talk to a friend or family member so that they can give you gentle reassurance before you go but my mom told me is that for your first therapist appointment it will be a get to know you kind of thing before you dive into the actual problem. I don’t think you’ll have anything to worry about for this first session. I hope it turns out OK and that you feel a little bit of weight off your shoulders after you go. All Support to you :)
I actually came here to see if anyone felt the same as me. I feel this too. I have my 2nd appointment today and my thoughts are trying to tell me it’s all a set-up to ‘catch’ me. I keep trying to reassure myself that it’s to help me.
@A.N OCD attacks what is SACRED to you. The disorder is meant to make you doubt and believe the scam it’s trying sell….
Today I had my follow up appointment with my psychologist, I left feeling worse, I loved the psychologist I spoke to last time he was very informed and understanding, this time I got an appointment with someone who he supervises and I feel like she didn't allow me to speak, she didn't allow me to explain my thoughts or feelings, she told me I have to take my medication or she won't be able to continue helping me, which I understand but im terrified of medication I can't get over it, she said if i start the prozac and it doesn't work then I'll have to get on antipsychotics which seems a bit extreme to me considering i have no psychotic symptoms matter of fact she didn't even allow me to explain my symptoms and i feel like there's so many other antidepressants that could work before getting on antipsychotics🙁 this didn't help me at all considering the episode of ocd i just got through was about me becoming psychotic, I just feel let down and misunderstood, I almost felt as if she was mad at me for the buspar not working she said "you didn't really try it you just took it for a week so if you stopped it it's like you gave up on yourself" but it kept me up 2 nights in a row and i couldnt function from the anxiety 😞
my appointment with the psychiatrist is months away and still need to confirm everything but after talking with my therapist last night I just feel even more scared. Like scared I'm not going to provide enough info and then she'll tell me that nothing is wrong then all of this is for nothing. Of course, id love for there to be nothing wrong with me and to feel none of these things that have been bothering for so long. But the fear of being told that there isn't when its causing so much worry... it's making me really anxious. But it also makes me feel guilty because I feel like I'm just looking for attention or making something out of nothing. Even though I know very well it isn't nothing. I know that people sometimes take years or even decades to get help or get a diagnosis that actually fits what they've experiencing and im scared of that too.
I have this strong yearning to tell my mother all my thoughts and what I go through on a daily basis but then I get scared of what she'll think of me or that she'll worry even more and feel like it's her fault. I just want someone to understand what im going through but whenever I even begin to explain my thoughts to my therapist, she doesn't really get it and today it feels like no one ever will. like I try to make my therapist understand and bless her heart, she's super compassionate and understands how much pain it causes me but beyond that, it still feels like im not able to fully convey it. I'm sure this is something many people can relate to, but still. I feel alone.
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