Groinal Arousals/Responses Are Driving Me Insane

Every time I go to bed late and I’m falling asleep, I suddenly get an intrusive thought of a child’s face and my groinal area always responds to it. It’s such an uncomfortable experience. I am way too tired to try and freak out so I end up falling asleep. The next morning I’m always trying to figure out whether I had the groinal response first or after the thought. I start giving OCD power but it feels like If I let it go, then I’m in denial or whatever. I don’t want to ever do anything sexual with a child. I don’t even feel comfortable talking platonically with people who are 17, much less a child. My therapist says that I have a deep rooted fear that I’m this horrible person and that OCD loves to feed off of it. When you get a groinal response, it makes the thought that much more real. I never want these things to happen. I want to only be into adults. It’s so discomforting and stressful. Especially since I’m hyper checking how anxious I am, and if I find I didn’t really have much anxiety, then I’m like “well if I didn’t have anxiety, what does this mean?” And more questions occur til I end up in a rabbit hole

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GermanCowboy

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 14w ago

Rest easy, it doesn’t sound like you are a monster to me. A groinal arousal or response are actually quite normal with OCD. This is completely different than actually maintaining a full erection and pleasing yourself to underage girls/boys. An actual sicko will do the latter without feeling any remorse and even go as far as to rationalize it or excuse it. So no, you’re not a monster. I’m not supposed to give reassurance, but I think hearing this once may help. But then if I see you asking the same question, I’ll say “maybe or maybe not” 😁

marleyk

Date posted: 2d ago

@GermanCowboy very helpful comment. i needed this too.

HOY

Date posted: 2d ago

this is helpful comment, groinals/arousal non concordence are scary things for me 😢 it feels real, but that only makes it more terrifying

bluefire2235

Date posted: 14w ago

I know how you feel.

User type: Therapist

Date posted: 2d ago

It sounds incredibly distressing to deal with intrusive thoughts accompanied by groinal responses, especially when you're trying to rest. Many people with OCD experience this, and it can make the thoughts feel terrifyingly real, latching onto deep fears just as your therapist mentioned. If you’d like additional support, feel free to book a free call with our NOCD team. We’d be happy to share more information and explore ways to help. No one has to live in fear of their own thoughts. Also here are some helpful resources: https://www.treatmyocd.com/what-is-ocd/common-fears/fear-of-rape-ocd https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/pocd-symtoms-and-treatment/ https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/how-ocd-tricks-you-into-feeling-physical-sensations/

misereri

Date posted: 12w ago

Urgent: i need yalls opinion

Sometimes I think " do I like kids?" "Would i get aroused if I saw content with kids?""What if I'm a pedo and cant accept it?" "What if I'm ok with these thoughts?" "What if I'm not distressed enough " "What if I enjoy these thoughts?" , i avoid kids as much as i can, i cant look at them bc I'm scared I'm gonna have some groin like response. I keep testing if I'd get turned on or if I'd have some groinal response to sexual scenarios with kids. Sometimes I think that if I took my life this would be over and i wouldn't have to think about this and i wish i doubted something else instead of things like this. I had similar situations just with different topics such as if i loved or found sexually appealing a guy while in a relationship and i kept asking myself those questions for months and i avoided going to school for weeks and when I went I'd cry and have anxiety attacks. I had it with past actions i obessed over and felt the need to exploit every detail and be honest because otherwise i was being a fraud. I had it for sexual things that happened when i was a child. Im not diagnosed with ocd but should i tell this to my local counselor? Can someone help? Give me advice or tell me anything?

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malolin_21

Date posted: 8w ago

I feel anxious

I’m on my period and o think my ocd feels a little worse today… I feel anxious and like something bad is about to happen, like I can’t move or talk cause I’ll freak out or snap and do something. Also I had a gronial response about an SA topic and I feel horrible, I’ve noticed that I do have these gronials as if I’m actually into that but idk if it can happen that you have the gronial and think “oh I’m horny, not about this but I am” is that possible? Idk how to say it… also I think I just want reassurance but I’m also scared…

Anonymous

Date posted: 7w ago

Will groinals go away with acceptance

I keep getting these groinal responses when I think about kids or see one and it's really distressing, I only just learned that OCD can make you feel that and it's not actually attraction but it's so hard to remember that and I've seen people talking about accepting uncertainty but I'm so scared to think "maybe it's attraction maybe it's not" instead of "no it's not attraction that's disgusting" and idk what to do

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