How to accept it?

@Anonymous12465 Yes I understand this feeling , im sorry your suffering too

@OrMsB Hey I'm sorry for not replying I'm just really in a bad spot for me it's feels to real like I think I'm in denial

@OrMsB I hope your doing better

@🦈🤍🫧ℛℴ𝓂𝒶𝓃ℯℯ🫧🤍🦈 Hey it’s totally ok, don’t be sorry I know that feeling. I’m sorry your in a bad place too. I I’m having a horrible couple of days too. Someone gave me a tip here that help me a bit, It’s when I’m having a hard time do something for yourself like something you love. And ocd can get you feeling like it’s so real I feel it all the time. Hope things will be good for us

@🦈🤍🫧ℛℴ𝓂𝒶𝓃ℯℯ🫧🤍🦈 It’s very hard . Im trying to get throw it even though it’s feel impossible. Trying to do erp and not do compulsion even though I’m not successful in the compulsion part. How is your day going?

@OrMsB Horrible I was up all night crying I still am I was up until 6:00 like it's bad I've just been having these really gross intrusive thoughts from younger people in TV shows it's really scary and it's like I'm having images of them in edits like wtf I keep teling myself that's CHILD why am I thinking this like I don't want to think it but it's like popping up in my mind now im questioning if I'm attracted to it like this had before and ive always would be like oh eww ok that's weird and then move on but it's like everyday and I'm freaking our I woke up with bad anxiety my heart was racing so much beacuse I'm scared that it might be true like these are babies!!! Why is my mind picturing me doing this gross things to them and having them do gross things the worst part about it is that like when I think about a guy I like thats my age my mind goes to the younger person it's weird like I want this to go away

@🦈🤍🫧ℛℴ𝓂𝒶𝓃ℯℯ🫧🤍🦈 I’m so sorry, genuinely. You need to remember that this are just thoughts and you are not a bad person. I know how those nights feels and they feel horrible. Can you try doing something you love? Habit/talk to someone? It might help a bit. And again I’m sorry your suffering , I’m having a hard days too and all I want is to talk with my therapist so she will calm me down but I will wait a couple of days till our session

@OrMsB I know I'm just scared because I genuinely feel attraction and I know it's not real but it scares me like I don't want to turn into a non offender like.... this is terrifying thats literally one of my biggest fears😭😭

@OrMsB Like you biologically can't turn into a p word right like I hope not that's impossible I've always liked men only men... like I'm terrified.

@🦈🤍🫧ℛℴ𝓂𝒶𝓃ℯℯ🫧🤍🦈 Yes I understand it. When I saw that there are non offender makes me anxious cause what if I’m one? It’s scary I know

@🦈🤍🫧ℛℴ𝓂𝒶𝓃ℯℯ🫧🤍🦈 I hope so too. I never was attracted to… and I’m still sure I’m not but the thought and compulsions… I’m hoping it’s not possible to suddenly turn into a p . I really hope so

@🦈🤍🫧ℛℴ𝓂𝒶𝓃ℯℯ🫧🤍🦈 Thank you, I just feel like a horrible person it’s horrible I hate this it’s feels real

@roarytorii 🌸 Thank you, but also living with the chance that I could be a bad person kills me so idk how to accept the thought being here when I feel terrible

@Anonymous Yea i have those nights too it’s hard. Im sorry your suffering too

@OrMsB This sounds like it could be turning into Meta OCD

@regretfulrain What is meta ocd?

@OrMsB basically when you have intrusive thoughts about ocd. like “what if my ocd is fake? what if these are real desires and not ocd?” things like that

@regretfulrain Yes I have that all the time. But what if it’s still true. Like what if I don’t have meta ocd and I’m just a bad person. My psychiatrist and therapist told me I have ocd and I had a few themes before Pocd but Pocd just feels so real like I can’t even explain ocd was never that severe. Like what if I have ocd but I don’t have Pocd that’s what I’m afraid of. I hope this is just ocd

@OrMsB I have been in the same area. Your what-ifs are OCD but I know that knowing that doesn’t help much. As for feeling like your OCD has never been this bad; it most likely wasn’t in the past but something triggered it. OCD can also get worse with age. I wish I could help more but I really can’t. I wish you all the best and hope you can get help.

@regretfulrain Thank you ,I hope things will be alright