- Date posted
- 27w ago
Is it even OCD anymore?
I started seeing every little thing as a sin. Or at least things that will bring bad karma. Everything, even little things like listening to music or enjoying a meal. In my eyes, everything everyone is doing is mostly sins and it terrifies me to death. It scares me to the point of paralysis and I canāt even do anything anymore because everything is a sin in my eyes. Iāll definitely spiral if I think about it more, but if I donāt, I feel like Iām lying to myself. I donāt even have confidence that this is OCD anymore. What if Iām right (Iām not necessarily wrong according to my religious doctrines, not that Iām a 100% sure) and nothings going to help me, not even therapy? And if most things humans do are sins anyway, whatās the point of anything? (See how it starts relating to an existential crisis) Iām terrified that no oneās gonna be able to help me anymore. I feel like Iām at wits ends. I donāt practice Christianity btw. Any insights or even āme tooās would help.