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I’m worried I’m an actual horrible person and using these as excuses…. I know nobody will understand this and will get confused but I can’t keep pretending everything is okay anymore:( Basically, for a long time, I would think “oh this is wrong, I shouldn’t do it” then a few months later I would be doing that thing? Like this was forever ago but I think about it, how did I not know things were bad when I thought that way? I mean I knew in reality I never actually knew what was okay and what wasn’t okay, and I only went off of what people told me, or the kind of people I was around 11-16 .. I regret these actions and I always end up crying, how did I not know??… I know I didn’t know but … I don’t know…

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Username: EllogovnaEllogovna

Date posted: 21w ago

I know what you mean, I also have deep regrets for past mistakes I have made, I definitely knew it was wrong, but still made the choices bc I was told to by an older person so it felt okay in a sense, I cry about it still every now and then even though I know I was just a child, your brain is still developing at that age so as you’ve gotten older you’ve probably realized what you did, and now feel guilty I’m not an expert on this by any means I just got this app today, you are not a horrible person you are human, the fact that you feel deeply about it shows that you aren’t a terrible person

Username: llalalallalala

Date posted: 21w ago

@Kamrynbd I understand what you are saying. It is very difficult to regret the things that happened when you were just a child. 😭 But we are not what we did. Welcome to the app, I hope you find help and peace.❤️

Username: llalalallalala

Date posted: 21w ago

Hey! I know how you feel. I've done things that I deeply regret. Regardless of what you've done, know that you are not your mistakes. I once read something that helped me a lot: Even if you've done something bad, it doesn't mean you're a bad person. You can make mistakes and still be a good person. But when you have OCD, it's hard to see that gray area. If you need to talk, you can talk to me. I understand. It may seem like no one will ever understand you, but I've been to rock bottom because of past mistakes.

Username: King sillyKing silly

Date posted: 21w ago

@llalala Thank you!!!

Username: King silly

Date posted: 20w ago

My past

I’ve done many things in my past that I regret heavily, and I can’t get over it.. I really can’t no matter what.. One being that when I was 14, I was making inappropriate comments and jokes to my friends/partners who were 1-2 years younger than me, and I feel so disgusted that I did this, why did I do this, I’m a horrible person, I don’t deserve anything…. Important to note: yes, at the time I didn’t know any better, I really didn’t, i remember it being really normalized, NOT an excuse but an explanation.. but, I regret being that way so badly, because it’s so gross I can’t believe I was so stupid… and I still see kids nowadays make jokes and comments to their friends/partners like this?? Why is it still normalized…

Username: Jay222

Date posted: 20w ago

I’m not a good person

Today i remembered something from 2 years ago that i did. I don’t know if i can talk about it in detail, i guess I know everyone would hate me for it. I didn’t do anything DIRECTLY to anyone, it’s more about what I didn’t do really. I just feel like I allowed something terrible to happen cause I didn’t wanna be involved. I did what I thought was the best thing to do at the time, but was it? I haven’t thought about it in a while, but today it came out of no where and I just kept thinking about it. I know I should try to be less hard on myself and try to learn some self forgiveness but at the same time…it’s hard to feel good about anything.

Username: Kumiakumia

Date posted: 19w ago

Feeling awful

I tell people my situation, they say it's nothing big or it's fine, I was a teenager. I still feel awful, magically thinking that the persons going to change their mind and expose me to the world that I'm an awful person even though they said I had no affect on them whatsoever. I feel guilty to admit I've shared it with numerous people, whether a little older or the same age, never younger because I feel uncomfortable talking to younger people. Still, everyone says I did nothing wrong and there's nothing to worry about, but I'm more concerned about the fact I feel like I truly did something horrible, I feel like what if someone's enabling my actions, even though they say they're being honest. I feel awful, and I know I have to sit with discomfort and all that bad stuff, but truly I feel disgusting. I've isolated myself for weeks, and I just don't want to hurt the other person, it's made me question my own intentions too. Does anyone else feel this way? I just feel like my mistakes are worse than anyone else on this app or in the world.

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