i feel so low.tw:talk of sh and suicidal thoughts

i can’t take care of myself anymore. i’m sleeping with no bedsheets, no pillow and no blankets. it’s so hard to do anything. i can’t shower, i can barely eat, i can’t brush my teeth. i want to self harm so bad right now, i just want to end it all honestly. i feel like i was doomed from the start. my own mother says i should just kill myself. i don’t know what to do at this point. i can’t accept help because i can’t have anyone near me. i feel hopeless. i know this is temporary but, i don’t know. i feel like a child who needs to be guided, i just want someone to hold my hand and help me, but my mother hears my cries for help and ignores me. i’m an adult, there’s no one here to save me, no one to guide me. all i have is myself but, im no good.

Username: kiwi01kiwi01

Date posted: 21w ago

it can be so hard to find supportive people as an adult, im still struggling with it. i find myself coming here when i dont know who to talk to. im in your corner. ik it feels impossible rn but pls keep going. you deserve to sleep in a comfy bed, and to take a warm bubble bath with a rubber ducky, and to eat a sweet treat at 8am just because youre craving it. sometimes we forget how much we rly are worth. you deserve to be happy. if you feel warm randomly in the day, thats me sending you a telepathic hug❤️

Username: healinghearthealingheart

Date posted: 21w ago

at this point it feels like i’m intentionally neglecting myself, i’m pushing people away and self sabotaging. i think im trying to reach my breaking point so i could attempt. i won’t though, i want to keep fighting, but feel so weak right now.

Username: kaylaxokaylaxo

Date posted: 21w ago

I hope you hang on. You matter so much and will get through this 🤍

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 21w ago

You are good. You are worthy. You matter. You are not alone. Keep fighting, I'm going through similar.

Username: Kag911Kag911

Date posted: 21w ago

I understand exactly how you feel. It is a daunting thing to know you have to have the ability to help yourself. Even if someone reaches a hand down to help you up, you still have to engage your legs and make the effort to stand up. It can be tiring. Sometimes a little rest can do wonders though. You reminded me of a couple scriptures that have been helpful to me in the past. Whether you are religious or not they are comforting, I feel. Look at Psalm 68:5 and 1 Peter 5:7. Also, for the record, if your mother was being legitimate in her comment, it's incredibly unkind, and you needn't regard it. If anyone ever told me something like that, (and they have) the fact that they would say such a malignant thing alone would discredit them in my mind. "Hurt people hurt people" is a very true cliche, and anyone who would say something like that with true intention is dealing with their own issues, and it's not personal to you. They are dealing with their own brokenness. I don't know your circumstance, but my mother has also said some things before that were unkind, but she did not mean them and I know that. My dad has told me things like what you mentioned as well, but he meant them facetiously. It still hurts though, regardless of intention sometimes.

Username: bsbsbdnsnsn

Date posted: 23w ago

living (vent)

im just living day by day. i’ve stopped doing the things i used to like doing because i don’t want to ruin them. i dont want my favourite music, movies, shows and hobbies to be tainted with anxiety and my own thoughts. im a shell of who i used to be and if i had the choice i’d do nothing. at this point i’m living to cover up my emotions. its even harder because i’m not actually diagnosed since i dont think i could handle telling my parents about what’s wrong with me. i have a lot of the symptoms and i’ve had them since i was quite young (16 now) and it just hasn’t been getting better, im just better at hiding it now. i dont want to bother my boyfriend or parents with my issues so i have to deal with everything myself. i don’t find anything fun anymore and i want to die, i have nothing to live for and i quite simply want it to end. i always think it can’t get worse but i fall deeper into my sadness and me saying i’m alright to people is a lie. i feel so incredibly trapped i don’t know what to do with myself anymore.

Username: veinsoul

Date posted: 22w ago

life doesn’t seem to be worth it

just venting. tw for SH. too lazy to type everything. genuinely just tired. I don’t want replies. the end is somewhat beginning to be appealing. maybe if I do it, they will care. I’ll be pissed if they do. fuck off, you didn’t know me, you have no right to care if I go. I was always in the background. all of a sudden I will matter for a few moments, and what for? don’t even try to give compliments to who I was. you didn’t know me. it’s a shame I thought of a future. a non realistic one. I only felt comfort in my imaginary world. hopefully there is another life. a better world. I think I will rest now. good night.

Username: totallyanxio...

Date posted: 20w ago

not doing okay

i need to hear encouraging words. they likely will only make me feel good for an hour or so, since it’s not coming from loved ones like i need, but i just want someone to believe in me, for someone to know i struggle with severe ocd and have since i was 7/8. i want someone to know this about me and still encourage me to get better and have hope that i will become the best person i can be. i have no one. i’m depressed. i can’t keep living this alone. please

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