Mitu_001
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Please help
My pocd it's getting really bad again and I don't know what to do ... I am so scared .. I will go to therapy but Idk if I could talk about my intrusive thoughts...I am scared . Any advice?
Forever hopeful7Forever hope...
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- OCD Conqueror
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Be honest with your therapist they should be able to help if they are familiar with ocd
Mitu_001Mitu_001
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Yeah I should but I am scared they will think I am a bad person
mr.hectormh@gmail.commr.hectormh@...
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@Mitu_001 - Remember that they are there to be part of our team and to ultimately help us
anony_anony_
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i’m struggling with POCD. do you wanna talk about it? you are not alone! i’ve learnt so much regarding POCD and i didn’t realise how common it really is
Mitu_001Mitu_001
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Yeah it would help! Thank you
anony_anony_
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@Mitu_001 awesome! what’s on your mind?
Mitu_001Mitu_001
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@anony_ Well .. I get intrusive thoughts ...I had other themes before but this is the most horrible you know? I got this like a long time ago , it got better but now is worse again...And I am ruminating constantly...
anony_anony_
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@Mitu_001 i get you 100%…ive had ocd since i was in my preteens and im 18 now and ive gone through themes such as sexuality, awful thoughts about my mum. i have terrible ocd about my health but pocd is the worst one, you’re right. i go through states where if i think it’s slightly getting better, i start thinking “ what if i really don’t have ocd and i like these thoughts “ then i start compulsing and i feel as if in back to square one
Mitu_001Mitu_001
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I am sorry that you struggle! And it's like that for me too! I also struggle from my preteens and I also have terrible thoughts about my health.. It's though
anony_anony_
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@Mitu_001 it’s truly one of the worst feelings. if you don’t mind me asking are you getting any professional help or intend to? because if not i use ieso and i talk to a therapist through there and she specialises in ocd
LivingwithOCD0692LivingwithOC...
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I was so scared to talk about it but I finally did and it does help but you have to continue to go to therapy don’t go just a few times and get in your head and stop going.
Mitu_001Mitu_001
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I am glad! Yeah I will go... It's necessary
Mitu_001Mitu_001
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Is ok I don't mind! I intend to go to a therapist . I went before but I didnt talked about my intrusive thoughts ...And if you don't mind is the therapist helping you ? I mean is it helping?
anony_anony_
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@Mitu_001 it’s helping a little bit but i only have one session a week and only started about 3 weeks ago. but it’s really nice to actually be able to talk about this stuff that you can’t say in like everyday conversations every day because unless you have ocd or you specialise in it i feel like no one understands
Mitu_001Mitu_001
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@anony_ I am glad that it helps!
Mitu_001Mitu_001
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@Mitu_001 And yeah I dont think that someone could really understand unless they have ocd or specialise ..
anony_anony_
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@Mitu_001 you are most definitely not alone though! it’s genuinely so so scary but it will pass, it just takes time
Mitu_001Mitu_001
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@anony_ Thank you very much ! Yeah it will pass! I hope it will get better soon for both of us!
anony_anony_
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@Mitu_001 i hope so as well! if you ever need to talk just tag me and we can have another chat 😊
Mitu_001Mitu_001
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@anony_ Thank you so much! Same for you!
Steven55!Steven55!
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If it's any comfort, the current theme you're going through, POCD, is one of the most common OCD themes. Please keep in mind that OCD attaches itself to what and who you value, and what you fear. You're not a bad person. The fact that you're agonizing over these intrusive thoughts is evidence that you're not bad. You also mentioned in your conversations that you've had other themes. That, too, is textbook OCD. I mention all this to assure you that you're not bad, you're dealing with OCD. Please keep in mind that a thought is a thought is a thought. It's not a threat, or an action, just a thought. The English philosopher, Samuel Johnson, commented, "We all have thoughts that would shame hell." Not only you or the rest of us dealing with OCD, but EVERYONE. As for therapy, you really need to retain a trained OCD therapist who uses ERP therapy, the gold standard of OCD therapy. It's VERY effective. You can find a good therapist through the NOCD site or by checking out the International OCD Foundation website. They have a list of approved OCD therapists, and you can see if there's one in your town. I did the NOCD route and am very pleased with the result. As for the therapist thinking you're a bad person, relax, like a priest in the confessional, your therapist has heard it all before...Hope this helps.
Mitu_001Mitu_001
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Thank you very much ! Your words brought me comfort . Thank you !
mr.hectormh@gmail.commr.hectormh@...
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As rough as it sounds, as soon as I accepted that it was happening, the less tense it became for my body to bear. Kudos on therapy, I suggest you proceed with however you're comfortable, but proceeding nonetheless. We have the power to steer clear and completely think about something else but it starts with ourselves, therapy and community. I applaud you for sharing 👏
Mitu_001Mitu_001
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Thank you very much!
Jesse1982 Jesse1982
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I have pocd too and get triggered easily plus my past haunts me. My therapist helps me a lot and reminds me it's my pocd not my values. I'm here if you need to talk
Mitu_001Mitu_001
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Thank you so much! I am glad therapy helps
Mitu_001Mitu_001
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It would really help to talk
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