My brain is so messed up that I m having panic attacks at the doctor office just get nervous for no reason even when they call my name during the test I had to take couple deep breath my life su*ck why I can’t just be normal getting nervous and anxious for a doctor appointment only me my stupid brain I don’t think I can overcome this :(
I struggle with this too. Every time I have a doctors appointment i go into complete panic attack and just get so nervous in the waiting room and then having to check my blood pressure makes me nervous
@sarah <3 Yes that’s what I was scared of blood pressure check :/ never had this issue before now I m scared it will be high even though it never had before
@Monii Ive been dealing with that for years. I used to have elevated bp from stress and weight gain, and then loss weight, exercised, and got on antidepressants and it went to normal, but I’m in between antidepressants right now so i haven’t found anything to work for five months after Lexapro quit working for me and now im nervous to get my blood pressure taken again. The best thing I can suggest that worked for me is I purchased a blood pressure machine cuff and make sure that you purchase one that is loose and fits your arm because if you buy a tight one it’s going to hurt really bad because the at home blood pressure monitors take longer so it’s squeezing your arm for longer and make sure you buy a cuff that fits you and you’re gonna be nervous at first when you take it at home but if you just continue to take it every day You’re bound to just get less and less anxious over it and I tell myself like, after a few times of taking it at home I get more comfortable with it and then I end up getting a accurate measurement and that’s only after a few tries of not being anxious at home while taking it, if the anxiety is bad like mine. But you have to get to a point where you’re taking it at home and you’re not anxious to get accurate reading because that will tell you if you do have high blood pressure and if you do have high blood pressure even when you’re not anxious, then it’s best to tell your doctor that you’ve been monitoring it at home and it’s high so they can put you on medication for it because that’s a very dangerous thing to deal with.
@sarah <3 Ah ok I understand to be honest I don’t thing purchasing one of those will be a good idea because it will become obsessing and I think is a compulsion but I understand what you mean is like facing my fear of taking the blood pressure I know it just having one of those at home will be come a compulsion for me but yes high blood pressure is dangerous my whole entire 30 years I was only told once that it was high and I had fever at that time and they told me it was because the fever after that even even I m anxious I haven’t had any but who’s know all this ocd anxiety is damaging my body I know I won’t last long :/
Yeah i agree it can definitely become a compulsion. I try not to do it only if i go to the doctors and its high but i don’t do it every day because i know if i do it once ill do it so many times after that in one sitting and thats so bad and thats good you’re probably fine then, Yeah i feel the same way. All this anxiety can feel damaging to the body and I have really bad health anxiety so i always feel like something is wrong with me
@sarah <3 Yes ocd is very tricky I have to be careful something don’t be come a compulsion is so exhausting living with this disorder that’s good that you can control how many time to check And yes I don’t know if ocd but I feel like anxiety is damaging my body which I wish I could prevent that but there no a lot I can do even with erp still need to go through the anxiety me too really bad health anxiety I don’t know where it came from
@Monii Ive had health anxiety since i was a child, it only went away when I was on lexapro :/
@sarah <3 Me too I think my mom passed it to me growing she was always going to the doctor talking about disease and worry about me getting sick :/ she also have ocd
@sarah <3 To be honest I m so scared no being myself if I ever get on medication 2 years ago when I kept going to the hospital with my heart on 165 I felt like I was dying having a heart attack they did all the test and said anxiety and gave me a injection of lorazepam I got home feeling weird I was questioning why there’s was a bed in my room weird lol and I was laughing next day feel very strange that’s why I never got on medication
I don’t know what crack my hormones are on this week but I’ve had like 4 different panic attacks at work today. I sometimes think it’s so silly that I was diagnosed with panic disorder until this starts to happen every 4 weeks. Panic attack followed by panic attacks all day for days. I feel like I’m going insane. I’m scared I’ll get reprimanded for staying in the bathroom for so long but I can’t have a panic attack out there in front of everyone :( I feel so scared ugh
I'm really frustrated right now because once again I feel like I can't keep up with my own brain and I just can't keep doing this. I'm so tired of doing this. My head is always going and going and going and I just want to unplug it. It makes me so stressed. It's like I have someone else in my head who won't shut up and is always pointing everything I do out. Like I'm walking on eggshells around myself so I don't trigger these thoughts. But if I walk on egg shells then it just goes on about something else and I feel like I'm going crazy.. I feel so bad because it makes me so snappy. I want to bash my head in because I'm so over it. The only thing I know that helps is anxiety meds, because I had one one time and it actually really helped me (it didn't even do it's job! Because of how bad my anxiety is!! I'm just so desperate at this point for relief) But the last time I brought up going on meds for anxiety with my mom she said I'll get addicted, like my dad, or my grandma, or whoever else in my family because everyone in my family is addicted to SOMETHING. I don't see the issue in trying though. I feel like I'm someone who could really benefit from anxiety meds. I don't talk about my feelings often BECAUSE of anxiety, so it seems like I'm just trying to go on meds for no reason. But it's like..my body hurts. All the time. And my brain never stops. My brain is so messed up. I feel like I could do so much more if I wasn't like this. It's never going away, I've tried and I've tried and I'm still a mess. I just want it to stop. I'm not asking for much. I just want the fear to stop and the intrusive thoughts to stop and the racing thoughts and the feelings of doom and the nervousness and and I actually want to feel okay in my own skin for fucking once. I've tried everything nothing works im losing patience and I'm losing hope. I feel like there's something wrong with me. I feel like my brain is broken and that makes me sad to be honest. I feel like everyone around me can work. Why can't my stupid brain work???? I try so hard. I try so hard all the time. And it still doesn't do what it needs to do. I hate myself so much.
I went to internal medicine today, and i'm not perfectly healthy, My liver is a little bit fat, I have to lose weight so thats okay, also I have gallsand, which is not gallstone yet but it can become that if its not treated. Now im like these arent big problems but when i heard these I started to overthink and think about the worse that I will have gallstones cause the doctor said I have it cause it runs in my family(my mother/grandmother and uncle had it) and I just think that it wont go away, and even if i doesn I will be worried all year if it came back. Im just so afraid. Also they said I should go get a blood check, but I said i will hesitate now cause last time i almost fainted and felt horrible the whole day, and now i hear from people i know that they went and they felt sick and vomited there. But the overthinking comes from me thinking if these little symptoms I experienced which I thought its because of anxiety, was because of health issues then the other symptoms I experience sometimes (headache and lightheadedness) are there cause of another health issue, and im worrying about my health, im afraid of death, i keep imagining myself if they tell me that i have terminal illness or something really bad and i dont know how to handle it. Now i feel nausea and i would say its because of stress but i keep thinking that its because of the health issues I have...I don't know how to handle this fear, if you ask others or therapists, they will say "yeah everyone is afraid of death and suffering" or "Try to think about something else" and i wont pay for advices like this...
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