Does anyone ever get or even force yourself to think an intrusive thought to test your response and then think that didn’t make me anxious enough therefore…. I like the thought or I could end up doing the thought
I 100% do this. I always question if I feel anxious enough about a thought or I like, test how I feel with certain thoughts, and if I don’t feel really bad, I freak out internally. It’s the absolute worst
I don’t know if I force myself but I am experiencing something VERY similar. I’ve gone numb to my thoughts. I find myself checking for the thoughts when I don’t have them and therefore causing myself to think them. I’m always worried that I’m not worried
Oh my god someone finally put it into words. I do this and then feel bad for not feeling bad and then worry I’m a bad person ugh
Relatable
I actually did a double take at this post, omg yes
hey, i totally get where you're coming from. it's super tough when your brain gets stuck on those loops, trying to test or judge your reactions to thoughts. it's a common thing many of us with ocd go through, so you're definitely not alone in this. 🌀 i'm actually dealing with a different ocd theme myself, but i've found a couple of apps that have been pretty helpful. one that my local ocd support group recommended is "unstuck ocd therapy tools." it's a cool app that gives you ai-personalized guidance and exercises right when you need them. it's been a game-changer for me in those tough moments. another one is "gg ocd," which is great for learning the basics of cbt for ocd through small, easy-to-digest modules. it's not as personalized and doesn't offer in-the-moment support like unstuck, but it's a good start if you're new to cbt. hope this helps a bit. remember, you're not alone in this fight. 💪
Have you ever been feeling okay and then suddenly an old intrusive thought comes back but worse and you can’t seem to get past it as easily?
I have been dealing with intrusive thoughts for a long time, and while most of them don’t affect me anymore, there are ones that really concern me and make me feel panic. They make me feel like I could actually act on the intrusive thought and I’m just holding myself back from it. It’s really scary and I don’t know who I am anymore.
I had a terrible graphic intrusive image. So why didn't I feel nothing? I should have been disgusted immediately. I was just passive, it didn't effect me as much. I'm currently obsessing about the fact that I didn't react. I don't know if I should be afraid of this. I know I didn't like that, but when things like these happen I feel like I never have enough confidence, like to simply say "no I was disgusted, I don't like this, I would never do that" end of the story, without any second guessing thoughts. I can never have that statement confidently without feeling that it might not be true. And sometimes when I try to answer to the "OCD question" my brain double downs and says "well what about this? how about that? would you like it that way? you've never thought about it that way!" My brain asks me "would you do it if it was like that? have you ever considered what would it be like? maybe you would like it?" What do I do? I think I know what should I do, but I don't know if it applies to this, if it applies to me at all, as sometimes I think that these are not OCD symptoms or it isn't OCD at all.
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