I have the urge to jerk off to my intrusive thoughts (or I have the urge to jerk off when I have intrusive thoughts I can't tell) and it makes me feel awful... I makes me feel like I'm in denial and I want to crawl out of my skin. I know I shouldn't ask for reassurance, but I need it. Does anyone else experience this?
hey! it’s so hard to talk about these things- i’ve been worrying abt the same thing! it’s very confusing, bc intrusive thoughts typically cause groinal responses. i’ve never met or even heard of someone who had sexual intrusive thoughts and DIDNT get groinal responses or feel, “urges” but it’s not you! it really isn’t. you’re not in denial, your ocd brain really is just trying to convince you that you are this person- but bad people don’t worry about being bad people. they don’t care. you care, it’s bothering you, it’s your ocd, it’s not you! and you’re not alone!
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Good to know.
Hey there I understand you completely, I’m very new to ocd and education on it, and with my other forms of ocd, I tend to test myself as a compulsion. Test to see if that’s what I’m into. I go through the same thing. My sex therapist taught me about the term “arousal non-concordance” in which your arousal is not aligned with what you want or your morals. And this definitely feels like the case for you as well.
I do, exactly this and it’s torturous
Does anyone else have the strong urge to do some sort of drugs sometimes when there ocd gets really bad or over nothing in general, like I’ll just be sitting doing nothing and my brain goes “you need to do cocaine right now or else” and I get a urge and it’s so like odd to me??? I’ve never done drugs in my life and never plan to because my father was a addict and I’ve seen what they’ve done to people so it scares me when I get these thoughts and then I get the urge to reach out to someone who can give me drugs and I play this whole scenario in my mind where I contact someone and I meet up with them and pay them for the drugs and then I take them and die and it’s like??? Idk I’ve had weird intrusive thoughts involving drugs before but this is like different if that makes sense, I also can’t stop focusing on how my body feels when this happens like it’ll feel like I was a previous addict and that I’m going through withdrawal and need something or else and it’s just so weird to me. Anyone else go through this?
I am so so upset and anxious right now. At this point I badly need reassurance as Im feeling a whole panic attack coming on. Has anyone ever had the feeling in their head and body like they are actually going to act on a terrible harm related intrusive thought like it actually feels like you are. Im scared as fuck i dont know what to do because What if i actually do that i am so scared does it ever feel like your on the edge of doing it and you get this whole intrusive urge in your body PLEASE REPLY please tell me experiences
I’m sharing this bc I need advice or even support from anyone who can relate. If you can’t relate and don’t think you’ll say anything helpful or kind pls don’t comment anything… I’ve been struggling with somethings that’s making me question myself. There has been moments while self pleasuring when I get intrusive thoughts, in those moments it feels like I’m enjoying or even self pleasuring myself bc of the thought. Right after I immediately have an anxiety attack and my HEART drops bc it feels terrible I feel like a disgusting monster :( ppl have told me I haven’t done a bad bc of how intense my guilt and panic are but I keep thinking that MAYBE I made a horrible decision in the moment and the guilt is just realising that it’s just wrong this doesn’t make sense to me because I’ve always told myself that I would never act on this in 1 million years and I’ve been known that these things are wrong so I’m just like constantly questioning myself these feelings and exact same situation has happened two times already I even promised myself that I wouldn’t act on anything beforehand and yeah, I still felt like I did act on my thought during my alone time I’m genuinely convinced that I’m a horrible and it’s even got into the point where I don’t wanna be here anymore and I don’t even think this is my OCD :( tbh
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