Not sure how to feel...

It’s a scary thought, but it could also be very much real, when this happened I spent an hour checking in my fridge, having to record with my phone in one hand to make sure no kitten would climb into the fridge while checking, rummaging through my fridge thouroughly with the other, when I was finally done I closed the door but realised I might not have looked hard enough on the shelf in the inside of the door where my sister stores all the sauces she brings back form her fast food job, since those little packets are stacked up half-hazardly they might camouflage a small animal, so I started panicking, but I forced myself not to go check, and was too lazy to since it would mean I would need to spend like 15 minutes of checking. But I feel like crap because of it... I know it incredibly unlikely to have happened but I will never be sure of it.

@realeventwitsend I have also had compulsions where I had to check and make sure that something terrible doesn't happen, where I had to look really closely, and if I didn't check good enough, I needed to restart. And it is really hard to go through, harder than I could explain. I hear you. And I know it's really hard not to check, especially when it seems so important. I wouldn't want to give poor advice, I'm not a therapist, so take what I say with a grain of salt. But, in general, even though it doesn't feel good, it's good not to give in to compulsions. I know it was hard, but it was probably good that you didn't give in to all your compulsions. Sending a virtual hug. 🫂 And remember to have grace with yourself, buddy.