I want to believe in my salvation

I went through that when I was younger, It was dark times. One thing to remember is that if you’re worried about doing it that means you haven’t

I feel bad that you are so afraid of this that you are even unable to type it. The sin was unpardonable in what in literal Greek was the aion or age meaning during that time and the time that was to follow. An aion is always a limited duration of time. It had nothing to do with an eternal punishment or separation from God. God is love and love holds no records of wrongs. There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love. I hope you find peace from your distress.

That is a hard one for sure. Dealt with it myself. So don't feel that you are alone, many deal with this. I don't know if you follow Jaimie Eckert and Mark DeJesus but both cover this topic.

I've had that same fear before. I'm sorry, it's super rough, I know. And when I had that worry, I could feel my throat swelling up like I was about to say it out loud, and that if I did slip up and say it, that was the end. It was horrible, and I'm really sorry. I'm here if you want to talk. :)

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I dont specifically talk about the impardonable sin....but here is my take: Revelation 3:20 says: Behold, I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears My voice and opens the door, I will come in to him and dine with him, and he with Me." And the end of John 6:37 states "the one who comes to Me I will by no means cast out". And of course John 3:16 states that whoever believes on Christ will not perish but have everlasting life. So from these verses, we can know that the one who commits this sin (if it even possible in today's age...it may have only been possible when Christ was here on earth and people witnessed them first hand) will never believe in Christ, come to Christ, or want to be with Christ. Therefore, if you want to know Christ then you have not committed that sin. There is no scenario where someone wants to truly repent and believe Christ and is then turned away. The impardonable sin paints the picture of a heart so hardened in pride that they can't (b/c they dont want to!) see Christ for who He is....namely, the Savior of the world. Because if they did, they would have to humble themselves and admit they are sinners in need of a Savior.