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Does anyone feel like seeking reassurance and then end up feeling worse after seeking it?! Gosh…

Is it possible to have OCD when I don’t have strong compulsions? My mind obsesses over my social awkwardness and I’m constantly thinking of different scenarios, what people are thinking, etc. I also overthink everything. And I mean everything. I know it’s a lot more than most people, even those diagnosed with generalized anxiety. I can’t stop, it takes over almost all day, and it’s started to cause insomnia as of recently. I’m not asking for a diagnosis I just want an idea of what’s going on inside my head. Also, I don’t think it’s ADHD because I’m not impulsive and I don’t take many risks at all.. it’s mostly a problem with inattentiveness because my mind is elsewhere.

I'm just curious about this and I will get to why later: 1. Mandatory Covid Vaccination, yay or Nay? Why? 2. Needing to show vaccine card to enter venues, restaurants, etc. yay or nay? Why? 3. Mandatory covid test for the unvaccinated, yay or nay? Why? 4. Mandatory masks for the unvaccinated, yay or nay? Why? 5. Are you an anti-vaccine, yay or nay? Why? 6. Are you afraid of covid? And to the point...: 7. Are you afraid of needles? 8. Has your OCD impacted your ability to get the vaccine? 9. Do you have GAD, Panic attacks, etc., which has impacted whether you get the vaccine? I'm generally someone who is in support of Science. I encourage others to use their judgement in regard to the vaccine. I mask up in public. I'm just afraid. I'm also rather isolated because of my OCD in general. I understand that I could get sick and it scares me,, but I'm not emotionally ready to tackle the vaccine. I have an excruciatingly hard time with feelings of being contaminated with bodily waste, so anything medical is difficult for me. I have obsessive thoughts regarding the vaccine in general, since it is relatively new and people (even on here) have been telling horror stories. I don't think the general public is taking into consideration that people like that exist when they post things. I don't have anyone to help me out, so I'm just afraid my isolation will take me to even darker places if a mask is not good enough (which I try to follow).

Everytime I'm out in public I'll be like what if someone is gonna take me or what if someone starts shooting in here.. I grew up always being told to not leave my sisters side or my parent's side and I don't and If I do I get so scared especially if I lose them... I don't feel lile someones out to get me I feel like what if this happens like in the TV's starting to wonder if these are delusions and if I'm going psychosis! D:

I was doing so good for like a month and now I’m back to stressing again. It started with groinals. At first I brushed them off because I was happy at the time and didn’t want to deal with it. Now I’m stressing about them and other things. I saw a tik tok about a girl coming out after being married and having a child and I’m scared that’ll be me. Im scared that I’ll never be satisfied in a relationship with a man even though that’s all I want. It might be heteronormativity but I’ve tried to think about women like that and being Intimate with them like that but I just genuinely do not feel that way. I’ve thought about having connections to women the way I have men and I’ve never had connections or wanted connections like that with women. And even though I feel this way it doesn’t change the way my brain thinks. Literally any doubt that I’ve had or any thought, it uses it as proof and I hate it. I’m so scared of never being happy in a relationship. I’m so scared to try to have a relationship, I’ve never had one, because maybe I’ll hate it. I’m just so scared. Terrified even. I hate all this and I can’t even talk to anyone about it so I’m just suffering silently. I wish I could be like everyone else and just know what I want. At this point I don’t know anything about myself just that I’m alive. I just want to be alone for the rest of my life because it’s easier then actually knowing what I want.

I went to a counselor and he said I don't have ocd and anxiety... While one psychologist said I have both ocd and anxiety... Just wanted to say fuck him and he issa fucking asshole for saying that because now my father has someone to back him up on his idea that I'm just acting like it and I don't have it, he just don't want to pay for therapy, he is so cruel, I literary have anxiety attack every day in front of his eyes... I started great with doing erp myself but now couldn't do it for 2 weeks... I don't know what to do...

I don’t know why god would do such a thing. Why after 22 years am I having to ask myself these questions? I shouldn’t even have to ask or reassure my self that I’m not the things my mind tells me I am. I just want life to be the way it was even though I still had imperfections in my life at least I wasn’t thinking or feeling the things I am now.

TW So recently my ocd focuses on rape and molestation. I tried so hard to resist the google compulsion but before I knew it I was googling how to rape/molest people, babies,dogs. I am absolutely disgusted with myself. I feel horrible. I would never ever do that to anyone or anything but the face that I listened to the ocd and gave in to it makes me feel weak and I’m horrified the cops are gonna show up at my door thinking I am going to rape someone. I made sure to take my ocd meds today so hopefully I can get back on track with my meds and the ocd will let up again. I feel like such a monster and horrible person.

im just remembering more and more things and it’s causing me so much stress. i just want to be normal oh my fucking god. i keep connecting what i like for myself and saying i somehow get aroused when it’s applied to kids WHEN THATS NOT THE CASE AT ALL! i dont like seeing kids get hurt that’s never been in my fantasies like ever why am i suddenly doubting it now i’m so irritated

I cant do This anymore, i feel so bad When i look at my mom cause she talks about our future plans and all the places we Are gonna travel and now im sitting in my room crying because i cant stop thinking about if i have done something to my sister in her sleep or not. I feel so guilty and it feels so real. I cant continue anymore. I need to Know if i did or not im so scared and i feel so bad

***IMPORTANT*** Hey, I have a very urgent question regarding my antidepressant, and I know it might just sound like any other OCD spike, or me just being a hypochondriac, but I really need to be made aware if what I'm doing is lowering the effectiveness of my medication, or even worse, causing it to become toxic. I store my antidepressants (which are in a tablet form) inside a small cardboard box, with a lid that doesn't exactly have an air tight seal, and I have found out, that after the 2 years I have just been absentmindedly taking them, there has been a crack in the box, meaning the pills have been exposed to air "constantly." I have heard that there are pills out there way more oxygen-sensitive than antidepressants, but I'm still worried, about whether or not they expire faster, or if the formula even changes. Keep in mind I have kept them away from heat and moisture. But ontop of all of this, I can't really swallow pills, at least not very well, so I've always just let it dissolve in my mouth and then swallowed it. During my research on the whole "longterm air exposure" situation, which I never found a straight answer about, I stumbled across a person saying that you should never crush your pills because they have a stomach acid resistant coating on the outside that allows it to only breakdown and get absorbed into the body at specific rate. Apparently if that exact rate of absorption doesn't occur then I may either feel no effect at all, or all of the effect will happen at once instead of spread over 24 hours. Please help, especially if you are a doctor or a pharmacist who knows a little about this, because I would hate to think that I have been doing something harmful to my body, even if unintentional, and if so, I'll will need to discontinue the way I do things immediately. Thanks!

my race ocd and POCD are really trying to fight for relevancy in my brain rn. this is going well. and both are about thoughts that i can’t remember. what a joy 😭

My husband and I had a huge fight because of my Rocd. I asked for reassurance and he yelled and said he is tired from the endless questions. He says he loves me but how can we be in a marriage when one of us is completely unhappy. We have a small baby and I feel so.confused. I believe he will never accept I have a mental illness and deep down believes that I somehow choose to be like that. I know that understanding is not easy but what can I do when I feel so bad and sick already. How do you cope when there's no understanding and compassion???

I think I'm still in the derealization state! But I'm trying for it to not bother me I'm aware of how I feel and how it makes me see and anxiety makes me fall more deeper into the feeling but less anxiety still keeps me on it but still won't give up! Quick question of derealization is it supposed to always be severe or can you still have derealization and be calm? :D

Hi, so basically a kid texted me on snap he said yo and then i said yo back. Then he said you owe me 100 dollars. I’d seen this kid twice and each time was close to my neighborhood. Then, i responded saying so no I don’t. Then he said i’m going to fight you when i see you then. I hate drama and fighting because it gives me a lot of anxiety. I asked what can we do about this because I told him i’m focused on my religion and don’t like fighting. He then said I’m going to tell your religious people you smoke. I told him they wouldn’t care and I asked him what we can do about this. We came to the solution of me giving him 50 and me being dumb i gave it to him. Then i guess my OCD kicked in and kept making me ask are we good, are you going to fight me, etc for two days. Then i decided i wanted only my close friends on social media so i made a new account and deactivated the old one I got scared he might get mad at me over that so i added him on the old account again and told him i’m making a new account and that’s why i won’t be on here and said yet again are we okay? then he said if you give me another 50 wel be good then i realized he wouldn’t stop so I pretended to be my dad so people didn’t think i was a snitch and told him that i would call the police if he didn’t stop harassing “my son” and said i (as my dad)work with the police and my brother is a sherriff. Then i saw him that night because of a mutual friend but my mutual friend told him not to do anything and i explained to him i don’t like drama and all that then he replays saying “we good” then i saw him again yesterday he smiled with his friend as i walked by. This is giving me so much anxiety that i always have to watch my back now. I’m 16 by the way and he’s 18 i think

I wonder if I am crazy now or if I'm a psychopath :/ I was struggling with depersonalization/derealization then I saw someone's post on NOCD here and I'm like what I become like them and I all my anxiety disappeared and I feel as if my depersonalization/derealization isn't here anymore.. Why don't these thoughts give me anxiety like existential ocd! I hope I never do these thoughts. I hope I never hurt anyone or myself! It also feels as if I'm faking my emotions I cry then I'll take off my tears and try to fix my face :/ I can't tell if my dp/dr is Still here or gone

I’m thinking about going to an in patient OCD treatment facility. Thank I’m nervous but just can’t take this anymore.

are ocd and anxiety neurodivergent disorders??

Im on 4 hours of sleep and I don't like taking naps at all when i actually need to. I keep obsessing over being protective with my time and obsessively looking for jobs, careers, high paying job, whether or not to go back and finish college but what degree? Choosing a degree for money(computer science) or fulfillment. Also thinking of working a Full time job i keep obsessing, if i have time for side hustles if I work 8 to 5. It's getting stressful im glued on my phone and YOUTUBE compulsively trying to find which PATH do I need to take. Its also hard to see myself holding down a job long term and in my mind I don't like rude bosses or managers or confinement, I have been indecisive and not taking action on anything good at all these past 2 to 3 months. Its hard to be consisent and theres too many options and choices, its driving me crazy. I don't want years going by not saving a good amount of money and not hitting at least one things. I TRIED a commision based job for 3 years so far(I'm 23) its a tough career if i were to go back would have done so many things differently. I feel lost, defeated, weak, and also disappointed. I keep changing my damn mind too. Also i have this urge to prove some family members wrong, idk why I care so much about people's validation, acceptance from people why do I base my decisions towards that. Its like i really want to them im worth it, im valuable, etc. I like the admiration or feeling respected but why do I CARE about this? In my head i got a million of ideas and path It's hard to stick out a plan.

Me and my gf have split up but we have agreed to stay living together because we have to young children. Has anyone been through something similar and can it work?