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Is this depersonalization? -I feel like I don't recognize myself when I look at myself in the mirror. -Sometimes my movements don't feel like mine. -Feels as if Im inside someones head just watching them. -When I'm in a store I feel so tired and weird as if everyone is fake and the lights either feel so bright or very low. -Sometimes I feel like I don't recognize my family and It scares me because yesterday in a store I was with my sisters and I didn't feel like I recognized them and I was worried I would forget and go with a stranger but I know If I saw them In a crowd of people I would know it's them feels like if I don't... Confused if I'm loosing my memory. -I don't really feel like I'm here. -I sometimes don't even recognize my own home as if it isn't my house but I'm always here.

Can crying and being upset trigger OCD, like certain feelings you dont like or thoughts?

Anyone else here have a bad thought you want to do something and when I mean want I mean like truly want to do it like NO DOUBT ABOUT IT? I mean REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY WANT TO DO IT! but then it scares you cause you wanted to do it? Please tell me OCD can make you do that and I’m being serious like really really really really want to do it in the moment of the thought then get scared after the thought like “why?!”

Whenever i have really bad thoughts i punch myself in the jaw because it hits my brain and it helps lower it down for a few minutes but im scared of i keep doing this ill do long term damage to my jaw does anyone else have any other ways of getting rid of thoughts temporarily without self abuse?

I can't tell if my derealization got worst.. I feel different like things feel fake or is this how it feels to feel normal? Everything just looks and feels weird I'm scared I think Ima start having an anxiety attack.

sometimes i cant tell if what’s going on is an intrusive thought or my inner racist. it’s hard as a poc bc being anti racist is such an integral part of my being that i can’t tell if i’m just fighting a racist part of myself or an intrusive thought bc either way i didn’t like what i was thinking but i can see why my mind chose that yk?

I feel so pointless

Does anybody else have dreams they don’t remember when they wake up but still feel extremely anxious and guilty?

It seems like nothing is giving me relief anymore. I’m in full panic mode and I’m so scared these thoughts won’t stop and that they are true. Idk what to do. I keep thinking if I just be with a girl then all of my anxiety will stop. I don’t want to but why does it feel like I do? I’m so tired.

why and how am i able to sit now with no thoughts and no anxiety? is this possible with ocd or is it proof i don't have ocd???

TW psychopaths. i really need help i’m freaking out so much. i think i’m quite an empathetic person. and i think i might be a masochist (someone who likes getting hurt / feeling pain). i don’t really mind this because at the end of the day it’s me who would suffer not anyone else. but then i was googling and googling and fell into a trap about sadistic people. what if i hurt people so i can empathise with their pain and feel good? because i like feeling pain? i’m usually quite sensitive to pain so i’m worried it could make be sadistic if i felt someone’s else’s pain. because i would enjoy as i like feeling pain. there have been times where i’ve felt weirdly stimulated by terrible / evil situations (i hoped it was just adrenaline and anxiety). and i’m so scared i’m a psychopath. i feel sick to my stomach right now with anxiety. like what if i’m sadistic??? am what if i really am a psychopath??!!! please someone help me i’m so scared.

I feel so guilty I never asked for this. A certain intrusive thought that I’ve been having that won’t go away came up at the wrong time last night if you know what I’m talking about and now I feel like I’ve acted on the thoughts and I never would never want that. I feel so ashamed

How do I continue to make it with the range of intrusive thoughts that I’ve had for the last 15 months? Doesn’t seem that there frequency has lessened and I’m so tired of them.

I wish i was never scared of having psychosis because its all i think about and I constantly convince myself i have it abs give myself symptoms

This might be a dumb question but is it normal for women to be a trigger for someone who has sexual orientation OCD?

im having a panic attack and i need help. i was reading something on reddit while watching a movie because i panicked after seeing a child on screen and i was telling myself that i was not attracted to them and i kept feeling like i was lying. but i wasn’t i just don’t want to be i do not at all. then on reddit someone said we clearly don’t want to do anything to a child but finding parts of them potentially attractive is not indicative of being a pedophile and linked a video. i still was resisting the thoughts and saying no to them but it made me feel better and i started pondering but i feel like that’s still justifying pedophilia and i don’t want to be one but i felt better after reading that but that isn’t okay either. please i need help i’m desperate i don’t like this and i hate that i’m even worrying about this at all

I thought looking at videos to expose myself to mh fears would help.. It feels as if everyone around me is fake or if its a part of my imagination... I kept seeong the video of Javier from spain that supposedly was stuck in 2027 but people were saying how it was fair I don't believe its true but what if it is? What if Im fake? What if everyone around me isn't real and are like robots? What if I left to abother dimension? Is it possible? Not asking for reasurance but am I doing it wrong?

I’m really struggling right now. I’m having intrusive thoughts around a real event. My family thinks I’m being ridiculous and can’t understand why i can’t let it go. I keep ruminating on “what if”. I don’t want to say what’s bothering me because that’s reassurance seeking. So instead I’ll give an example of the type of thinking that bothers me… It’s illegal to run a red light. I went through a yellow light that turned red. How soon did it turn red? Was I in the intersection before the turn? What if I get a ticket mailed to my house and we can’t afford the insurance hike on our monthly payment. What if that leads to not being able to have 2 cars and one of us loses our job and then we can’t afford to take care of our family on 1 income? I’m sure from that example you can see how distressing this type of thinking is. It’s a real event, I’m responsible, I’ll ruin everything, etc, etc. I think like this no matter how improbable the scenario is. To me, with OCD nothing seems improbable, but I can see the irrationality about it. My compulsion is rumination on the event, researching online, confession, explain myself, and ask if I’ll get in trouble. Does anyone else deal with this type of OCD or anxiety related thinking?

I don't know whether I'm fighting against myself or ocd. I just keep thinking fuck it maybe I will just come out. And then I think about women and I can't let go they used to mean everything thing to me 😔

My boyfriend is a very good looking man but when we took this photo he looks half asleep and it bothered me all night and I started to look at the pictures and look at my boyfriend, then back at the picture and so on and so forth because I started to think “is my boyfriend ugly?” But I know he’s not. To me I think it’s just a bad picture. I have another one in my archive where my eyes look red and demonic from the flash and another picture I’m sitting down and you can see my panties in full view. Out of all the pictures this ones the best one but I feel he looks bad in this one yet I know he’s good looking and I kept telling myself “you’re really gonna break up with him over a picture? He’s not even ugly in real life. It’s just a picture” my thoughts are so bad and I can’t take it I feel so bad