Christians help

The only way I feel peace is if I can trust god with every scary situation, responsibility, sin, obedience, or anything that overwhelms me. But I’m scared that’s a compulsion. Because it’s the only thing that calms me down. I’m not wanting to do anything else, not grounding or anything. Because that isn’t certain to me, but the potential for God to help makes me feel like I’m moving towards Christianity, and therefore towards safety. I keep getting overwhelmed by almost every daily task and everything I have to do, that I have to do it fast. I have to live a hyper vigilant lifestyle to not spiral. But the spiral usually just proves I’m unwilling to do the work. I just had two days off and even that much time to myself is suffocating because I just kept seeing how I wasn’t a Christian and the biggest fear was this…I cannot with confidence say I’m convinced of God and salvation in Christ and the Bible. And I am unwilling to research anything because I’m scared I’ll be more convinced by soemthing else. Which is not what I want. I want to be a confident Christian. But the fear is that this makes God not on my side, I can’t trust God with all these things and move on because he can see I’m a hypocrite. I also never feel in control. Every response is usually just a response to overwhelm and I just say “god take it” and nothing feels like me or confidently in my control.

Anonymous

Date posted: 21h

I don’t know if this will help but I want to assure you-the doubt you are feeling, is the OCD. That’s why you can’t conquer it. From what I’ve read in scripture-(I haven’t read the entire Bible but), the teachings of Paul assure us that- for those who believe that Christ Died for our sins, was resurrected again and conquered death and the devil, have life eternal with him. That’s the only step. Walking out everyday is a challenge but so is just life in general, would you agree? Just trying to be responsible is a struggle, holding a job or going to school. So the OCD has now just latched on to the “fear” of what if I’m not really a believer? But it would probably do the same if you were Buddhist or Hindu. The sense or feeling that YOU need to earn it is the exact opposite of what scripture teaches. And isn’t that amazing? For once-something we don’t have to earn. Now walking out the teachings will be a challenge. But again-just being a responsible citizen of earth is a challenge. I hope this helps. The “fear” of not being a believer doesn’t disqualify you from being a believer. Inviting Jesus into your heart and surrendering is the only step. And before OCD asks-are you sure you did that correctly?, it’s unlikely that someone insincere would even take this step with such seriousness. I hope this helps…

anonymousgal...

Date posted: 21h

im also struggling to trust God and lean in fully. i believe that God knows your heart and as someone with OCD (the doubting disorder) it makes anything without certainty feel scary and that’s literally what faith is: trusting blindly. i believe christians with OCD can find it harder to “fully believe and trust” in God but the fact that you want to shows where your heart is and God knows that. one thing i’m trying to do is not compare my journey and relationship with God with other’s relationship with Him. ultimately you need to trust that God sees your heart and your true intentions 🤍

lydiaruth731

Date posted: 15h

@anonymousgal 311 Thank you all for this. How do you think I should approach the trust blindly concept. Because that’s all I want to do. I want to ignore the fact that I don’t feel convinced. I want to ignore the conviction that I have to research and convince myself it’s true. I want to just trust blindly. But I feel guilt because that seems lazy. And many have said that this faith is not blind. It’s based on reason When I live life. Yes taking responsibility like you said is hard, so when I trust blindly often it looks like. “ God idk the way to fight these sins, teach me” but I still get stuck. What has helped you guys? Clearly I’m scattered lol

aarongils067

Date posted: 18h

Something that I try to remember that helps me is 2 Timothy 1:7 “For God hath not given us the spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.” So my fears and anxious thoughts are quite literally from the devil and what I call a “guilt monkey” trying to jump on your back and choke you out so you give up and quit. Another thing that is really reassuring to me is; 1 John 1:9 “if we confess our sins, HE is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from ALL unrighteousness.” Our faith is based on Jesus being faithful to his word to us not the other way around. Sorry to sound preachy but I get those same thoughts and remembering God’s faithfulness to us is what brought us to repentance in the first place. Satan knows that and wants to keep you held in bondage with fear. It’s his greatest tool for anyone.

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