Dare me

Hit me with dares I’ll try my best I have severe contamination and somatic ocd. I also have some embarrassing health issues pls don’t judge! Here’s my theme: \- I am worried I can’t clean my body enough. \- I feel I randomly pee esp in the shower so it keeps me in a cleaning loop \- Using the bathroom takes a while bc I need it to be perfect \- I often get stuff on my hands when wiping (and that grosses me out) but I touch the toilet seat and handle to flush so I’m terrified to touch them ever \- I change my underwear a lot… but here’s why: I have hemorrhoids from straining to get the “last drop” of pee or feeing til it feels “just right”. So now I can’t fully clean down there and am worried about getting stuff on my underwear. This one is tough to work around bc sometimes I do, and sometimes I don’t, if I don’t wear white… I don’t. So in that moment do I assume I do and just can’t see it or do I assume since I can’t see it I move on? Idk! But I’m planning to just wear regular underwear and call it a day and accept that a small amount won’t change or ruin my life. \-I struggle with laundry bc I don’t want to touch the contaminated underwear! I miss my life SOOO much. So please… dare me… I’ll try my best. It’s been really bad lately so this is throwing me into the deep end. Pls be kind, pls don’t push too hard, and pls don’t make me do something gently unhygienic… toilet seat/handle/sink handle are OUT OF THE QUESTION because I touch it after Genuinely getting traces on my skin. Anyway… yes gross embarrassing probably need to work on my Hygiene…

Chelseadear

Date posted: Yesterday

I don’t know if this is pushing too hard but maybe try peeing a little when you get in the shower? I know you’re afraid of peeing in the shower but maybe just actually do it and then wash your body after. Idk if that’s pushing too hard but just an idea. Or don’t change your underwear for one whole day. Just leave the same pair on morning to night. Or try touching the underwear when putting them into the wash. If that’s too much just grab all your dirty clothes and know they’re mixed in there.

bootswiththefur

Date posted: Yesterday

Are you working with a therapist? I just wanted to say it's brave of you to share. No judgment here. I empathize with you. Have you thought of anything you could do to challenge it? What are you comfortable with?

OCDsuxx

Date posted: 20h

Here’s something that may be good to practice! The next time you go to shower, try handling old underwear before you hop in. First, see that you can do it and then hop in the shower. Then you’ll want to try and handle the underwear and see how long you can sit with the feeling that you have the old underwear “contaminants” on your skin before getting clean in the shower. Then, try to maybe put the old underwear on just around your ankles before you hop in the shower, etc… just a thought! I feel like that one can be customizable to go with your contamination thoughts surrounding the toilet as well. As someone who used to struggle severely with contamination - I know it sucks but I can promise you, it DOES get better

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