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i keep forgetting to consult a professional about this but i genuinely need to know where this stems from/what drives it. i’ve always liked to take notes in the way i deem “perfectly” which is taking up as much of the paper as possible so that it was thoroughly used. this includes having all the material in order and together. like topic 1 has to be all together and before topic 2 and i need to fully use the paper neatly and so on and so forth. also with skin picking if i feel a scab or raised skin on myself i pick at it to get rid of it essentially. so that my skin is even. and then i can go in with products to make my skin tone even. obviously this causes more scabbing and scarring that i need to get rid of. which i find myself thinking about taking chunks of my skin off. and in my defense most of them have come from pimples (i don’t have acne my skin is just weird and i don’t know how to take care of it and how to help it when a nasty pimple decides to arrive and my skin kind of hates everything and sucks at healing idk i need to see a dermatologist but alas). anyways. thank you for coming to my ted talk. also i’m fairly certain i have undiagnosed adhd hence the horrible memory and forgetfulness. ok bye.

Nommnincsa

Date posted: Yesterday

First things first: what "drives" it sounds like some general flavor of "just right" OCD. Wasting supplies for the paper feels not right. Skin being rough/uneven feels not right. Beyond that there may not be any actual rationale/source really. Okeedokee, now here's a tip for skin picking so you can reduce the amount of damage you do to your skin. You know those hydrocolloid "pimple patches" you can get? That hydrocolloid tape was actually not originally developed for acne, it was developed for other minor injuries like scrapes. It keeps the surface clean and moisturized, and stops you from picking at it because it's a physical barrier/reminder not to touch it. I do the same thing with picking at my skin to make it smooth even though I know that in the long run it makes the problem worse. However, if I put a pimple patch on it's much easier for me to ignore uneven skin texture because when I touch the area I know the raised bit isn't ACTUALLY my skin being rough/wrong. You can buy hydrocolloid tape online as an actual roll instead of just tiny pimple patches. It's also amazing for healing a cracked lip, believe it or not. I spent a week in the desert and for DAYS after getting home I could not get the corner of my mouth to heal until I used my brain and stuck a pimple patch on it lol. If losing line of sight to the thing you're trying to heal bothers you, you can also get clear surgical bandages where the middle has no adhesive but the edges are sticky, and it's just clear plastic. Kinda like sticking seranwrap over the scrape/scab/whatever. It's clearly designed so that a wound can be covered/kept sterile but so that you can still see it in case it gets infected, but for folks with OCD they're super helpful for just being able to know what's going on under the bandaid. Sometimes I get stressed over scrapes getting infected and rip bandaids off without soaking them or anything, and just ripping the surface skin off lol. Those bandages help a lot with that. Anyway, if you're dealing with skin picking on a more significant scale (like if you got a bad scrape and have been ripping the scab off over and over or something) I'd highly recommend trying one or both of those options out. :)

Anonymous

Date posted: 13h

@Nommnincsa oh my gosh thank you so much for ur reply i will definitely try these out <3

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