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@Hopeful58 This wave of panic has come over me a few times and I have a few moments like this. It scares me so much. I love my baby girl so much. This one is so hard.

@ItsNotMeItsMyOCD hey i’m not a mom, but i have had some not so great thoughts while changing my nephew. i know i would never do anything of that nature to him or anyone. just know that you genuinely care for your daughter, and that these thoughts or urges are just attacking that. if you feel this panic, it’s more than likely a strong indication that it’s against your morals.

@ohjeezbru What scares me is that these sensations come out of no where. I’ll feel a wave of panic and it’s like my body is reacting to it like stated above. I’m very hyperaware of my hands when changing her. I’m very careful with her diaper changes. This slight pressure change has sent me through the roof and it came out of no where and it has happened before while bathing her. It’s not something I plan, I have no desire to harm her whatsoever. I just don’t get it and it freaks me out that I can’t find similar stories to relate to. Thank you so much for your response.

@ItsNotMeItsMyOCD i haven’t been able to really find situations similar to mine either and that’s been rough because it makes me feel like a worse person, but i just gotta tell myself that us as humans make mistakes. as for your situation i have also dealt with being very careful and mindful of my hands because im scared of touching anything inappropriately. you’re genuinely not alone. i hope that these responses can maybe help you deal with these thoughts in a mindful and healthy way.

@ohjeezbru Thank you so much for your kind words. They truly mean so much to me. When people take the time to respond to these distressing times it makes me think that there still are amazing humans out there.

@Vanessa✨ Awe. Thank you so much. I just don’t understand why my body does this. It only happens under extreme panic. I feel like I cannot relate to anyone. This has been so horrible.

@ItsNotMeItsMyOCD Omg I know!! That’s why I was intrigued finding this app is also about community and we can all support each other!! Reading these and finding taboo topics that not everyone can talk about is helpful in not making me feel alone. I thought I was a horrible person but once I caught on to OCD’s mind games I was able to work on it properly. It’s going to take so much work but you will get better with time!!