OCD got worse after I became aware of it

I think this is common in any diagnosis honestly, but especially with OCD because obsessive thought patterns will love to cling onto the new scary thing in your life. My DID was much more prevalent following a diagnosis because I could no longer tell myself what I was experiencing wasn’t real or wasn’t valid. I’m in the process of getting an OCD diagnosis now and have been experiencing this already. I was always so certain I didn’t have OCD growing up and now I’m realizing I almost definitely do and it’s been there the whole time

Yes I get you. I felt the same way. It’s difficult to understand we’ve been doing all of these compulsions all our lives but now we are aware. If you’re in therapy it might get harder before it gets easier. Good luck to you!

I could have written this word for word myself. I just got diagnosed like a month or two ago but was in denial about it. Now that I’ve accepted it, suddenly I can’t stop thinking about it. Then I’m like wait, am I just totally overthinking this and I don’t have it and I’m just doing all this therapy to feel better about myself to have a “label” on why I am the way I am. Lol. It’s exhausting. Also analyzing my entire childhood and life and asking or researching “is that OCD? Was that OCD?” So it’s pretty wild. Still new to this whole thing but I’m actually hopeful that maybe now I can actually get better…

Yes you just described my entire month

Same thing happened to me. Been struggling since I was a child so all of the symptoms were natural to me. It wasn't until I got pregnant, and moved in with my husband that I realized that my life revolved around compulsions.

Honestly I’m right there with you!! I’m sort of struggling with that myself. I come back to the quote “you don’t know how many red cars are on the road until you start driving a red car,” because I feel like once you’re aware of something, it’s so hard to ignore it it feels inescapable and overwhelming. I’m still working through how to come to terms with not seeing this sooner in myself. It’s a weird thing to come to terms with, and I hope you’re able to find some solid ground to stand on in your journey!

I feel the same. I’ve never been diagnosed with OCD. I’ve always been told it’s MDD and GAD but I know now it’s ocd. Since becoming aware of this I feel like my brain is constantly screaming. Also noticed since starting CBT I feel worse. I feel like I OCD needs to be treated differently than what I’m doing now.

YESS OMG!! Because I also am consistently applying metacognition to all my thoughts, and I feel like the recognization of the OCD added an extra layer of personal perception on myself