christians with OCD, what do you struggle with ?

I do not struggle to forgive others, however forgiving myself is a real challenge

Perfectionism and understanding. The Bible is very hard to understand and I feel like I have failed God because I can’t make sense of the Bible. I’ve somehow convinced myself that I would be turned away on judgement day and sent to Hell because God will say “You don’t know me, I don’t know you”. They say you learn about God by reading the Bible, but as I said, I don’t understand it. I have a good heart. I do good things for others, I support and provide, I do read the Bible some and attend church when possible, but I feel like I am deceiving God when un-pure intrusive thoughts pop in my head and as much I try to ignore them, I obsess over them, then anger kicks in and then the panic attacks. Having an alphabet soup disorders is SO hard to manage. You’re not alone. 🫂

Unwanted sexual/impure intrusive thoughts occassionally.

i struggle with feeling like God is mad at me or if I don’t listen to a thought and follow through with it that i’m disobeying Him and he’s gonna punish me

@Altruist-Martyr, there's no need to feel the need for perfectionism. Romans 3:23 states that "For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God." The church is full of imperfect people! Alot of the people in the bible were imperfect as well but God used them in mighty ways! He's not looking for perfectionism; God is looking for a surrendered and willing heart as well as a relationship with you. Agreed, the bible can be overwhelming, especially if you don't know where to start. I read it in small portions every day while following a bible reading plan. TBH, it was daily bible reading and the decision to be proactive that helped me get my OCD under control and my life back. A good place to start is Psalms 139:1-18 and 23. It conveys God's thoughts of you. He’s crazy about you! His thoughts toward you are precious! He thinks about you so much that they outnumber the grains of sand! Let that sink in for a minute. I suggest you read Psalm 139 daily. Meditate on it. Check out this link: https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Psalm%20139&version=NLT Hope this helps.

One of my ocds in the past was worrying whether a loved one was truly saved or not. I grew up in the PCA (conservative Presbyterian church) and they held to double-predestination and limited atonement, which fed into my ocd of wondering whether or not my loved one was one of the "elect" or if Christ died for them too. I have since then become a confessional Lutheran (LCMS) and I believe that all who believe are elect and that God sent His Son to die for the sins of the world, not just for the "elect." Being a confessional Lutheran has helped me immensely with that particular ocd. Not just that, but I used to feel like I couldn't tell a stranger that God loved them, because I wasn't sure they were elect. And now, being Lutheran, I know that God DOES love them and that He sent His Son for them too. Also as confessional Lutherans, we believe that God delivers His promises through physical means. These are the Word, baptism and the Lord's Supper (the body and blood of Christ). For example, I believe Christ delivers His forgiveness of sins to me through His body and blood (that are at the same time bread and wine) at His table (communion). Christ is for you and feeds you and forgives you through His Word and His Sacraments. If you want to learn more about confessional Lutheranism (LCMS), check out this interview with the rapper, Flame (Marcus Gray). He talks about his journey from being reformed Baptist to confessional Lutheran. https://youtu.be/6VPh1S7Icds?is=CIf04pqp7i5hmjeP I still struggle with ocd, but being confessional Lutheran has helped me immensely.