Feeling used and alone.

I know that no one owes you anything in this life but your parents while you're young. But after that its 100% up to you to get what you need for yourself! I get that part and I'm not that kind of person to throw things in your face I've done for you but if I did, I would be all day and night. I simply do things for people to do better and pass it on to the next. I'm a real people pleaser but w/ boundaries if that makes sense lol. I dont play well w/ ignorant people or situations and I'm good at never talking to you again if you take me out of my element/energy/composure. I've always been there for everyone else when they need anything but for me, soon as I got sick 09/2024 everyone disappeared right when I needed them! Now I'm left fighting alone, struggling to do the minimum 😫‼️ But I haven't given up or turned to drugs and alcohol. Nope, I have a different type of monster I use to cope w/ my problems and I'm tired of it not solving my problems. But it sure adds shame to my already existing plate of mental issues lol. Isn't life great? Here I am a 40yo man w/ more problems than a high school textbook. I made a lot of mistakes growing up but I never felt good about any of it, I feel absolute shame for some of those things. I wish to know what to do w/ the rest of my life. I mean every attempt to get help has ended w/ me not getting anything but more health concerns. It's almost been 2 full years since I got sick and over 50 hospital visits later I'm still trying to figure out my life! I have these kids and a 2 grand daughters to live for and I just refuse to give up knowing that no one will care for them like I would. They don't how much pain I'm in because I try to keep it to myself until I'm needing a Dr. I'm a real mans man is what I've been told because I have to be almost dead to want to see a Dr, I don't know why but I just don't like going to the Dr. So they know when I say that it's something wrong and they ask no questions. Well I guess I'm done venting for now, I wish you all a blessing so big you can enjoy the rest of your life stress free 🧎🏾‍♂️🙌🏾 Amen‼️ ✌🏾🫶🏾

Nat_44

Date posted: 19h

I completely understand my grandpa is the same but with me we struggle with addiction my grandfather refuses help from any nurse he makes me take care of him and I carried that responsibility but now im tired and 19 I still haven't done anything with my life yet I stayed hidden in My room for years trying to fix what's wrong with me and my family I have little cousins that I'm close with I'm also close with with their older sisters but for some reason I visit their younger siblings more than them because they are two busy with drugs and alcohol but now I'm left with the responsibility of being a great role model but lately Ive been feeling burned out but I still don't want give up on them because I love them as like my own younger siblings 💖 But really it's okay to ask for help it's okay to have someone there to watch over you even with health problems I used argue with my grandpa everyday blaming him for his sickness but really I'm just the same 😭💖🙏🏻

Ambitious1

Date posted: 19h

I appreciate you sharing yoir story. We all are faced w/ things in life, we all have our own problems to figure out. I've asked for help but I didn't receive it or it wasn't in the form I required at the time. But it's still help and I appreciate anything done for me. I also have cousins that felt like siblings at some point in life, I've also had a friends I considered my siblings because we shared a bond. I have a 18yo and a soon to be 20yo and to yell you the truth, at 19yo you have your whole life ahead of you!

AvemariaMTA

Date posted: 16h

I have had decades of chronic pain and other symptoms and even concrete diagnoses. Lin Health has been miraculous for me. Also the Curable app, Nicole Sach’s book Mind Your Body, and Alan Gordon’s book The Way Out. Look up neuroplastic pain, TMS, etc. We can rewire our brain, truly. This applies to any chronic symptom, not just pain. May God bless you on your healing journey❤️

Ambitious1

Date posted: 7h

Im going to look into these things and hopefully find something helpful! 🤞🏾🤞🏾🤞🏾

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