What was y’all’s childhood likes?

@Juliette26 What you mean you had to try? B, I’m flawless💅 lol jk I’m pretty sure everyone felt like they had to be perfect at school, baby’s first trigger right there. No matter how much I tried I couldn’t live up to my impossible standards in a system not made for me, my mother made things worse with her ocd as well, it’s not entirely her fault though, she tried to do what she thought would set me up for academic success, it’s hard to do that when you’re struggling mentally though. No grade was worth the stress if I was close to having a complete breakdown though

@jeremias189 That’s literally what I gifted myself after graduating high school, told my dad all the sneaking out and underaged drinking I’d committed like I was on my deathbed

@macarena3412 OMGG THAT WAS MY PLAN TOO😭😭 when I was like 13 I always planned to on my birthday confess all my wrongdoings to my parents 😭I never did it for some reason thankfully, I had sort of a pause in my OCD until I turned like 17 and then it was back at it again and WAY stronger 😭🤕

@jeremias189 16-17 is when the ocd spike hits out of nowhere, ofc not for everyone, unfortunately my ocd spike at 16 was a few months into covid💀 F

@mjr-rust Ugh. Same, I’m considering on whether not I should blast air horns randomly, let’s see who’s being over dramatic then

@izzyshaw17 Me with art, just actually practiced my instrument for the first time today in 6 years, i avoided playing it because i thought “well if you’re gonna do it, do it right, don’t practice until you get a instructor” and so i avoided playing until i had everything “good enough”. Life’s not a talent show, just say fuck it and do it while accepting the uncertainty of “but what if I do it wrong”

@macarena3412 That's so amazing. I'm so happy for you. I can relate to that! Whenever I try to play piano, I get frustrated with myself because I want to practice, but I get this feeling that I'm not going to improve. I'm so proud of you for fighting that fear! It takes time and I need to do the same someday too. The same thing happens with any drawing/painting projects. I get so upset because I'll have an idea/image in my head and have no idea how to properly recreate it. I hope someday I can accept uncertainty and just go with the flow with that as well.

@izzyshaw17 Certainly hope you do achieve that one day. But for now the canvas stays bare for the both of us (maybe, maybe not). How I hate when that happens, I’ll have an idea just there floating in my head, it’ll never come out at all if you don’t just let it exist first, that’s what a thumbnail, references, sketch is for, just getting the idea down on the scary blank canvas. The creative expression something something ocd support group was great for just that. Spending 20 mins just making art while fucking it up, the most difficult part, just doing it. I’ve only ever tapped into uncertainty in a different way like “yolo” “do it for the vine” “fuck it, we ball”. How does one “just go with the flow”? I’m fighting my ocds perfectionism every second even with all the tools I need to do the exposure. Discipline be damned. It’s too scary, I’ll gladly just avoid anything that’s difficult. But, then the “what ifs show up” and the feeling I get after it’s done is much better than the flurry of emotions of “no I don’t want to do this” “I’d rather lay down and die” “NO” “but I NEED to do this” “maybe tomorrow”. Maybe if we just do the stupid exposure the brain will finally give us a break. Or, we can stay stuck. Stuck in the loop. Stuck in the mud. Stick in the butt. But anyway, just 5 minutes a day “just embrace the suck.”

@Anonymous With a possible side of melt downs if something wasn’t perfect?

@macarena3412 Yes!!!