Struggling this morning with my OCD as I have an upcoming doctor's appointment this afternoon and am scared of the outcome. Feel like I'm spiraling, fixating, difficult to be mindful. Real struggle. :(
In my experience, the uncertainty you feel before the appointment is far worse than dealing with the outcome of the appointment.
I feel like this is such a theme with anxiety/OCD. The anticipation is so hard, but once the thing you were worried about happens, it's not as hard as your OCD wanted to make it.
It's not unusual for anyone to be concerned about a medical outcome. One thing you can try is to tell yourself, "I accept the uncertainty about the outcome, because I can't tell the future, but I'll worry about it if and when the situation ever presents itself." I don't know if that will help much, but the good news is that you recognize you're just having an OCD flare-up. I've noticed that at times OCD will flare up when I'm concerned about something else, almost like it's trying to divert me from worrying about the real-life situation. (Of course, then I'm worrying about the OCD flare-up, so it's like-pick your poison...) OCD is basically malware in our brains, which can get unraveled with OCD therapy, but it takes us on a mental rollercoaster. Hope this helps some.
@Steven55! Beautiful reply - thank you!
@Steven55! Mine does that too! It is like it wants to divert me from the real painful problem. Its so strange
Remember it’s just OCD until proven otherwise. I’m rooting for you, 💪🏻 hopefully it’s some good news! If you’re comfortable, let us know how it goes!
Hang in there! I totally understand and get that way too.
@Karotajs-theanxiousgogettergirl Thanks so much! Praying everything goes ok!
Hope you are doing good. I have severe health ocd so any appts make me spiral even routine stuff. Honestly its a nightmare sometimes. I actually took a few days off work and my husband dropped me off at the marina by our house to get me out. Definetly found getting outdoors and writing helps me. Its so hard to sit with uncertainty.
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