Help please

Yes, OCD can definitely make you feel like that. Let me explain how OCD works... OCD gives everyone taboo, intrusive thoughts. These are often sexual or violent thoughts, etc. Let's take a person with POCD, for example. This person will experience sexualized thoughts about kids. The thoughts will bombard his head every waking moment of the day. Eventually, the person's mind grows numb to the thoughts. The person's brain becomes overwhelmed and tired. The OCD tries to convince them that HAVE TO experience a negative emotion toward the thoughts. OCD says that if don't experience a negative emotion, that means that they "want" the thoughts. But you have to realize that these are all lies of the OCD!!!!! Here's the truth... 1.) Intrusive thoughts are meaningless. It doesn't matter if they are thoughts about sex or throwing people off the balcony. It doesn't matter if they are bad thoughts about God or bad thoughts about a spouse. All intrusive thoughts are the same. And they are all meaningless. They are like wisps of smoke. OCD will constantly keep you in its clutches until you realize that the thoughts don't mean anything -– no matter what they are . 2.) You have to stop fighting the thoughts. If you try to push the thoughts away, they are only going to get worse. The key to defeating OCD is to ALLOW the thoughts to run freely through your head. I remember when I first started doing this. I had terrible blasphemous thoughts against God. I thought I might go to hell if I allowed the thoughts to run freely through my head. But I learned that I was actually SAFE to do this. This is because the intrusive thoughts actually don't mean anything. 3.) You don't have to have a negative emotion attached to the thoughts Everyone's brain hits overload after a while. Eventually, people become numb to the thoughts. And then they always become scared that their lack of emotion means that they actually "want" the thoughts But they need a paradigm shift. In ERP therapy, you learn that it's OK to have NO RESPONSE to the thoughts. In fact, you are supposed to have no response to the thoughts. An ERP therapy, you learn to allow the thoughts to run freely through your head, and you don't need to have any emotion associated with them at all. In fact, you want to get so familiar with the thoughts, that you can say, "Hello, intrusive thoughts. You are welcome to stay in my head all day. I don't care if you are here or not." ----------------------------- I can tell that you are very tortured by the OCD right now. But you don't need to be!! Once you learn how OCD works, you can be free from the lies that OCD is telling you. Please feel free to message me, and we can talk more. I hate to see you suffer like this. ERP therapy can really help also! NOCD is a great place for ERP therapy. And they take most insurance! I am using NOCD right now.

Yea it does do that but just know your a good person that fact you know it’s bad

I also have been suffering with it to but I try everyday