Just Trying to Vent Today

It’s the start of spring, and that comes with many things. Allergies of course, but headaches? At some point about a week ago, I started to notice a headache, which I believe was coming from the forehead. I assumed it was sinuses. Almost a week has passed, and I notice that I tend to feel these slight sensations that would be full on headaches had they not lasted for less than a second. It might happen when I look over to my side, or just out of nowhere. I assume it’s stress and the ever changing weather, as Buffalo is certainly not known for consistent weather. The problem is that they drive me crazy, which is just because the OCD part of my brain steps in and says “What could it be? Maybe it’s something serious, maybe you’re dying and you don’t even know it.” I’m not looking for reassurance, I’m just venting here. Therapist’s orders want me to not look anything up if it’s trying to calm down OCD thoughts, so I’m really trying to listen to him. Sometimes, it scares me and makes me frustrated that I can’t look it up.

ocdSuupport

Date posted: 21h

Hello, I’ve come on this app tonight to help others out. About me and my ocd- I’ve been in and out of hospital, having 30 + showers a day, changing bedding anytime I have an intrusive thought so this could be 20 times a day, etc etc! I’m always checking and always trying to “figure it out” ocd has ruined my life. However, I finally decided enough is enough and that’s I don’t want to live like this anymore because trust me it’s horrible! I finally listened to my therapist because before when she said “go with maybe it Is” it “it definitely is” I would still refuse because it felt like I NEEDED to know ASAP!! However, just these last couple of days when I get a trigger I say to myself “yes I like this groinal response” “oo yes I like this thought” “yes I am a bad person” “oh well who will ever find out” and of corse this has helped me massively! I have such less thoughts and so less triggers and compultions! I’m not down to 2 showers a day due to this…. This shows how well it works, it’s just doing it. At first I really didn’t want to listen to my therapist because I needed to know, I couldn’t live without knowing, however we can, and will. I am proof that it gets better, I never thought it would but here I am, slowly getting better and so can you!

Taovryou

Date posted: 22h

Like a phantom headache?🤔it lasts for only 1 second?

MovieMason

Date posted: 22h

@Taovryou Oh is that the name for it? It must be that then. It’s barely painful though. just like a weird slight pain for less than a second.

Taovryou

Date posted: 22h

@MovieMason no that’s not actually a thing i just called it that. Were you thinking about the headache when it happened? sometimes i will feel like something splashed on my face or someone spit on my face but when i see proof that they didn’t I will call it a “phantom feeling” like i only “felt” it because my brain was anticipating it happening. if that makes sense.

MovieMason

Date posted: 22h

@Taovryou Yeah, that could be it. I also realize that if I don’t think about it too hard, I don’t tend to feel it.

Taovryou

Date posted: 22h

@MovieMason yea so maybe it’s just like your brain remembering what it feels like because you are thinking about it so much. i would only be concerned if you have a severe headache that just won’t go away for days at a time.

MovieMason

Date posted: 22h

@Taovryou Ok, that makes sense. When you stress about it, it gets worse.

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