Hospitalization or what, I'm horrified

Due to the past weeks, extreme news I've been seeing, (Epstein files, ICE, Global warming, etc) my awful performances at school, and my OCD getting out of hand (Catastrophic OCD, Real Event OCD, Existential OCD, POCD, etc) I don't feel like myself anymore. : ( OCD, depression, and anxiety is out of hand. I really want to be hospitalized because but I'm not showing any clear physical symptoms and knowing my parents I either have to somehow figure out a way to get really sick or just tough it out. But I can't think straight and I'm in the beginning of a really serious spiral. My heart is beating so quickly..! I'm really scared, what should I do?

Lucy Van Pelt

Date posted: 2d

Stop watching the news and get off social media. I did this a couple of years ago and it was the best decision I ever made. You don’t need it. If there’s anything really important people will tell you. Put yourself first. Are you in therapy?

VVbee

Date posted: 2d

I don't rarely use social media anymore due to that reason 😵‍💫 but it's been really hard lately since it's EVERYWHERE. No longer on it now though, have been off for the rest of the night and it has gotten me to feel less horrified for when it comes to the news stuff as of now already. My feelings hasn't changed towards everything else though. ":l (Such as issues outside of social media/personal issues.) Also no I am not in therapy whatsoever, I don't really have a choice in whether I can have it or not though due to costs and I need permission from my parents. (Which hasn't work out.)

Vee92

Date posted: 2d

Yeah definitely don’t look online, replace all social media apps and news apps with app games, that’s how I did it. I have no idea what’s going on out there and that’s fine by me. I highly recommend you tell a trusted adult at school what’s going on with you. Your parents are denying you help and that’s awful. Does your school have an adjustment counselor or even a para you can talk to about this?

VVbee

Date posted: 2d

I'm still upset but I am doing better now at least for right now, thankfully it's beginning to dim down to where I'm at least intact and can last until my next appointment/can talk to the doctors. My parents do care for me overall, (Even if my paranoia at times says otherwise) they're in the older age range, I assume that the subject of mental health is a different meaning to them, they don't have a clear understanding on what it really is, and with the way I am they just see me as "normal" and if I act out it means something unrelated to them- which then it just makes things so much harder for me and that's their biggest flaw to me. But no I have 0 professionals to talk to, I only have myself and this app at this current moment. But I do plan on talking to my doctors the next time I have an appointment as said, which is soon and I can tell them my concerns. Hopefully I can get help then. :^) And yes, I definitely won't be on social media for a while. Not until my headspace is more clear and sane at least.

Vee92

Date posted: 2d

@VVbee Yeah absolutely tell your doctor what’s going on, you deserve therapy and meds and professional help, we all do!

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