Religious ocd!! Desperate help

I am shaking so bad cuz I can’t sleep. My trigger words of blas*** are so bad after I got my nails done. Anyone else relate to this??? I feel like I’m the only one of the unforgive sin my brain can’t stop does anyone else fixate on that it gets worse and worse. Every choice says if you do that is it fake??? How can I ignore that voice. Like there’s no point of living if it’s not for God and not going to heaven. And everytime I close my eyes it’s just blas ****y of the holy **** what do I do has anyone been through this. Every time I close my eyes it’s like BAM BAM BAM. I can’t. Someone help. I hope someone can relate or give me advice. I am so tired and have work in the morning and feel so dumb. Like is my life ruined for ever and ever and eternity hasn’t even started yet.

LArcher

Date posted: 13d

I’ve been there. That Bam bam bam is so familiar to me. It helped me to separate what it was from myself. This is not me it’s ocd. Yes I’ve had blasphemy thoughts, thoughts that challenge Gods authority and accuse Him, I called my thoughts the snotty teenager. I’d be fine one minute then out of nowhere (thought) WOAH! The snotty teenager is back. I grew up in a legalistic church/home so my journey took longer because my faith foundation was wrong. Remember God loves all of us and Christ died for us WHiLE we were at our darkest. Come boldly to the throne of Grace.

G C

Date posted: 13d

@LArcher It’s mostly the word itself and tortures me cuz my brain tells it to me

G C

Date posted: 13d

Is anyone awake 😭😭🤣

liliesinbloom

Date posted: 13d

@G C Hey! I’m awake. First of all, you are totally not alone in this worry. I think a lot of people struggle with this. I know how it feels to have the same thing stick over and over and over, and to have it kind of put a wedge between you and God. I know it’s hard, but try to remember that God understands us better than we do ourselves. He understands what’s happening in your brain, and knows this is upsetting to you. It’s a lot harder I think to let those thought go, cause of that urge to apologize and go over your feelings and intentions is strong. It feels like life or death. But any thoughts are ok to have, even these as we don’t have full control over what comes up. the love you have for him he knows. As hard as it is, we have to learn to let whatever comes up do its thing and pass. Even if it feels like it’s you, don’t try to figure it out. You are safe in your brain even if it doesn’t feel like it right now.

mariaduska

Date posted: 13d

hey breathe. im not religious but i was once when i was younger and i hear how terrified you are. i want to tell you that it's ocd, it feeds on your fear. your life isn't ruined and you're not unforgivable, you're just in panic mode right now and i know how stressful it is but all you need to do now is try your best to calm down. you can try some breathing exercises, trying to get rid of the thoughts will only make them more intense. you're gonna be alright, you just need to calm down🫂

jacobhaugland

Date posted: 13d

I went through the same thing! Medication and erp helped me live again! You’re still gonna have those thoughts here and there but they won’t hold any power over you!

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