Good bye

So, I've had a bit of a journey in OCD recovery and pushed a lot of limits with experiments I've done to see what works and what doesn't. This includes things such as diet, exercise, ERP not just for my compulsions but even small things that pop into mind. I did all that, because I wanted to not be another statistic of how people with OCD don't get better. The stats are crap, and I decided that's not for me. I had ocd undiagnosed for about 26 years following a childhood trauma, and it was reinforced by the way i was raised with an extreme black and white mindset, and subsequent traumas. When i found out I had ocd, after trying to figure out what was wrong, i got to work with a therapist. I got better, i got worse, i got better etc. I was in the mindset of curing OCD even though there is no known one. Just because something hasn't been done before, doesn't mean it can't be done. I pushed myself so hard with my experiments to not just benefit me, but this community and others I know in person. I wanted to show you what works and what doesn't. Earlier this year I pushed myself so hard with an experiment I was messing around with that i ended up developing psychosis and having a psychotic episode. This by the way, is 100 times worse than any exposure, and ERP is not what caused this (just a disclaimer). I ended up having this episode and it was intertwined with what I can describe as mystical experiences, some of which weren't hallucinations or delusions and actually had witnesses other than myself. This period of my life was incredibly difficult for me and my family. I was fortunate enough to have family look after me rather than being hospitalised. As horrible as all this was, I got better. Through that episode i healed from every trauma I ever had without therapy at this time, and haven't had a single symptom of OCD since. Now the reason I'm saying goodbye reluctantly (maybe for now), is because of responses I've had to a few of my posts. I understand that all of you are having your issues, but when someome is VOLUNTEERING their personal time to help you out and all you can do is pick apart that help or get stuck on some negativity bias, it is really difficult to want to continue trying to help you. I dont do this for ego, i dont do it for validation, and i damn well don't do it to be criticised. I don't feel comfortable having everything I learnt on my journey undermined. So while I'm confident I'm not at risk of relapsing with my ocd, that doesn't mean I don't get upset with all the negativity and get stressed. I hope this is considered next time when someone is only trying to help. You are all worthy of it despite your thoughts, your fears and your past. Good bye for now