Okay so like im completely new here and I was kinda hoping to find out if i do have OCD because Iāve heard things about it and Im like āhey i have that quality tooā and i donāt wanna just assume i have it n all. Its just starting to become an obsession because people keep telling me i have OCD and Autistic qualities and tendencies but idk if i really am or if im over thinking it or just going completely mental lol.
Just so you know, regardless of whether you have ocd or not, asking people to tell you if youāre overthinking or mental would be reassurance seeking. Which is something to avoid when posting here since it can become a compulsion for some people. But, if you just want to chat about your experiences and find out if others have that too thatās totally fine. We can talk about that kinda stuff if you want!
Talk to a doctor lol
iām a new user on this app, I downloaded it just cause I was curious, I donāt really know if I have OCD. Because in school all I learned about OCD is things being out of place and having it to be perfect almost like perfectionism, but Iāve just recently realized thereās a whole kind of different types of OCD, some things I struggle with daily is a fear of bad things happening or almost like an impending doom of when is it gonna happen? Iām always in my head thinking feels like Iām having multiple conversations at once. Sometimes it doesnāt even feel like Iām having a conversation with myself. I have horrendous anxiety about everything and anything talking to people being around people. It just feels like it consumes my everyday life and I donāt know what to do. I canāt clearly remember anything from my childhood and some things I feel like I may be imagining I just donāt really feel like a person. Iām always thinking the worst in my relationship over analyzing and stressing out thinking of scenarios or thinking, my boyfriendās cheating on me. It almost all feels out of my control.
Hey, so idk if I have ocd, I would like to think Iām a very self aware person but I donāt wanna self diagnose at all, lmk what you guys think. So pretty much my whole life since I was young I remember having irrational fears im sure it was all trauma induced but when I was a kid I thought my father was poisoning me until I asked him, he started crying and was so shocked that I could ever even think that, my parents broke up when I was legit fresh out the womb, mom worked two jobs and disciplined me, dad let me do whatever on the weekends and got me snacks so I was obsessed with him so obsessed that it was mandatory for me to kiss his picture 20x everyday before school. Growing up I always felt followed by cameras or like someone out there was recording me waiting for me to do something embarrassing to expose me in front of the whole world and my life was over š¤£š¤£ I thought my abusive ex bf was stalking me through my I phone camera after we broke up and it would truly stress me out, it made me believe that it was the reason he never reached out again bc I probably looked ugly in the camera he was stalking me through. If I fall out with a friend Ill over analyze everything to see if I did anything wrong and god forbid while Iām self reflecting I realize I did something wrong I feel like an evil person, verbatim the people I fall out with is bc theyāve done me wrong in some way and it has to b something hurtful or repeated mistakes for me to really stay away for good, so Iāll beat myself up for making mistakes with another person whoās made the same amount of mistakes if not more and in most cases I always fall short, and this when I question if itās ocd or Iām just to self aware and see the ugly in me bc Iām not perfect and itās just makes me feel so unsettled but again thatās a normal feeling and the next step is to forgive yourself and do better moving forward, not obsess over it like your trying to convince yourself youāre a good person. Iām also hot tempered and will say hurtful things when Iām mad Iām definitely a crash out in the way, you push my bottoms way too many times and I will shred you, and Iāll say things ik will hurt you and thatās just so low, then the anger goes away and I have to face the guilt, which makes my āocdā 100x worse, it almost feels like I have to do everything right to not trigger it yet again I donāt have the self control to do it all right, I actually have a lot bpd tendencies again not diagnosing but Iām just trying to understand my brain. I worry about dying, getting a terminal illness. uti turning into kidney infection then into cancer kind of thing, knowing that life in general can b tragic is so scary to me, like what will be my story? What will be my life experience?. I believe that people see right through me and discuss it amongst each other, I always tell myself I am not that important but I canāt seem to shake it off sometimes. When I would break up with my ex I would have pre written paragraphs ready to b send if he ever decided to reach back and I would do this to make sure I didnāt forget a single thought, that every point i felt I need to prove was there, and that bothers me bc do I want win an argument or fix the issue. All of these feelings make me feel so pathetic and embarrassed people move on with their lives and Iām still stuck on something that happened 3 yrs ago. Then Iāll get manic get a tattoo, change my hair, go out clubbing do what I can to b the sexy young girl that I am and it helps in the moment but it worsens my mental after the euphoria is gone. Iām currently staying home, not going out, have only 1 friend so I feel like ocd progressively got worse now, I donāt remember it getting this bad in a while. lmk what you guys think donāt judge or think Iām embarrassing Iām actually so cool and if have to convince you Iām cool I will LMFAOO no but fr help
Hi, iām new to this app, iāve had it for a couple days but finally just built up the courage to make a postā¦ I think i might have OCD, but im not sure what type, or if i even have it, & i would like your guys opinions on it. I want to talk about some of my obsessions, some are physical where i get obsessed with physical objects, & others are where i get obsessed with my thoughts & actions, or other things people do. As well as my compulsions. Some thoughts i have everyday that im constantly worried about is accidentally killing myself, epically with my self-harm, & accidentally killing someone else although ive never had the urge or impulse to hurt someone like that before. Iām also worried about the quality of my car ALWAYS, & worried that someone will break into it, or steal it, or damage it - like hitting it, or doing a hit & run, or getting into an accident. I have constant thoughts about driving into a wall & killing myself. I also have to have the volume in my car at an even number otherwise it feels like iām going to die, or iām going to get into an accident. Iām also worried about my house burning down, & i even have to call my mom or text to her to make sure everythingās okayā¦ iām also constantly worried about people leaving/abandoning me, im worried that something in my past will come up, & someone will perceive me in a certain way that will make them leave me. Or im always worried that ive done something wrong although theres actually nothing iāve done wrong, which could also make them leave me. I have a really hard time with uncertainty, & i need reassurance constantly. I have a lot of paranoid thoughts like āmy family is out to get meā & āeveryoneās hates meā & āyouāre a horrible personā & images & more, even though i know theyāre not real & they have no actual meaning to them. With the physical objects, i get obsessed with ideas or things, like bands, collectibles, keychains, posters, stuffed animals, & basically anthing you can think of, & i feel the need to get things or buy things pertaining to it, to make myself happy or feel fulfilled. at this point im becoming a hoarder. Another thing that i deal with is having things on a special or specific order. i need things to be decorated in my room in a very specific way for me to be happy, & if somethings off it triggers me & makes me really upset. I need to have things facing me, & in order & arrange them in a certain way. I get obsessed with the order of my room & how things look, & need constant approval from others to make sure it looks okay. To calm down i often have to repeat to myself that I am okay, until i actually feel okay again, & i definitely avoid places & situations that trigger me. i also constantly have to fidget with my hands, & my clothes to calm down, & am constantly worried about what other people thing of me, & because of that i have to go to the bathroom especially at work to check how i look & fix my clothes constantly to make sure i look okay. I also have a lot of brain chatter, so no matter what the time of day im always thinking things in the back of my mind, my brain remembers things throughout the day, like music, or people talking, or phrases they say, & sometimes i have to say it out loud to feel okay. Is this OCD? & if so, what type?
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