The stress of a big change such as moving will certainly trigger a strong desire for certainty/guarantee, which is the ultimate root-problem of OCD, so anything that does anything but guarantee certainty in such a time of stress will most likely provoke an obsession.
The brain is a wild thing and so are dreams. The basic rundown would be that you brain, by means of the body (think of the 5 senses), is taking in information and then processing it. That order is important, because when you dream, your unconscious isn’t working with the information that has been processed, but rather the RAW information itself. It then proceeds to process the information, because processing information is what the brain is trained to do, but the unconscious doesn’t have the same values your conscious self does.
This means the following:
1. Your (and every other human being’s) unconscious is having an absolute blast throwing around raw information and constructing wild compositions, which then is given the form of a dream. (Think a Baroque painting versus a Jackson Pollock splatter painting, or Classical music versus Freeform jazz.)
2. The unconscious is working with the same raw information the conscious self, so there’s going to be a LOT of overlap in terms of dreams and memories.
Schizophrenia is an old term, to the extant that at this point it may be considered outdated. What “schizophrenia” describes is more so a dozen different disorders in a trench coat. (Think of how PTSD, Bipolar Disorder, OCD, Borderline Personality Disorder, and so on, once were all diagnosed as “Anxiety.”) This is to say that, if it is a genuine concern, attempting to self-diagnose is most likely going to be futile. (Don’t know if that is the case, just wanted to note.)
Remember, when you ask “Am I schizophrenic/catatonic/‘crazy?’” the the main concern here is that your not getting a definitive answer, which drives the OCD cycle. If there’s a genuine concern, works towards meeting with a professional, if you haven’t already, and once that’s set up you will be on the track of addressing it, rather than eternal question.
My suspicion, although I do not know, is that the huge amount of stress allowed the Obsession to be triggered, and the Obsession is MORE than happy to grab WHATEVER evidence it needs to justify and perpetuate itself. Remember, there is most likely nothing that can be objectively certain, or at least (incredibly unlikely) to the satisfaction of OCD. To worry about being crazy requires there to be an “objective” form of sanity, which, in regard to schizophrenia, assumes that a person that ISN’T schizophrenic NEVER has ANY schizophrenic-esque experiences, which would mean the brain never errors, which if such a person exists I sure would like to meet them lol
If you wanted a book to read, I’d recommend “The Myth of Normal” by Gabor Maté. Not so much schizophrenic specific, but certainly addressing “mental illness” as an idea. Another thing to remember is that the “disorder” part of mental illness is that it causes disorder in an established “order,” which varies from society to society. (For example, someone very fidgety would cause disorder in a quiet office environment, but would be in orderly behavior in a mountain-climbing group.)
Let me know if that makes sense. I will say, a schizophrenic/schizo-typal afflicted person would suffer from disorderly thoughts, which would have caused your post to make zero sense to anyone else. The fact that I understood your thought process and others have liked your post would be evidence to the contrary. But again, the thought is valid; the compulsions are not.
