To anyone who cares

I’m really depressed and lately life has been really really bad. Everyday, it’s like something horrible happens and my mind tries to make me forget it. My family life isn’t that great and everything is super tough for me. It’s like when I get better I go like a million steps back. I ended up doing something bad today:ended up becoming aggressive to myself and caused some ouchies) it hurt a lot and right now I’m really stressed and have been for a while. My mental well being has been extremely bad these days. I have obsessive compulsive disorder but for me it’s decently strong so it’s hard to contain, Complex-trauma, depression, and possibly ADHD. It’s an awful mix. My life is a living hell everyday. I’m not sure how much longer I can keep lying to myself to Myself that I’m getting better when in reality I’m in so much pain, it’s like I’m barely doing anything at all. Please, help, I’ve been acting not like myself. I want to live, even though it’s extremely difficult too and I rather much not be here, but people are counting on me and I don’t want to fail them. How can I convince myself to stay a little longer when I am fully burnt out from trying to get better? I’m in so much pain. I don’t know how to even deal with it. I’m so lost, I might lose it more, and I’m scared for myself. I feel like I don’t even deserve help. I’m so mentally unwell I can’t even think correctly. I hate everything and just want to sleep forever and ever. I’m so numb to it all. I don’t feel anything anymore.

Shelly.09

Date posted: 8d

Hi, I know this feeling too well. Try to open up to someone near you. Have a conversation with someone about anything random first and slowly try to tell them how you feel. Be patient with yourself. When my depression was really bad, first thing in the morning that always helped was getting my body moving. Try bike riding or running or dancing. Wishing you well

overitt

Date posted: 8d

I’m so sorry to hear that you’re struggling so much right now. I’ve been there, many times. I know it hurts, I know it feels hopeless. Take each day at a time okay? Progress is not linear, there are better days ahead I promise. You just have to get through this storm. I run a support group chat for others who are struggling with OCD, and are seeking peer support & connection. You would be more than welcome to join ❤️ We have a great little ocd family there. Let me know if you’d be interested. Aside from that, I truly hope you can find some peace tonight, I will be keeping you in my prayers 🫂

Wolfram

Date posted: 8d

Hey, sorry to hear you're going through a lot. Do you want to talk about what's getting you down specifically? Maybe unloading will help a bit

24ozpersepho...

Date posted: 8d

Sweet sweet Emilia, I’m so sorry you’re feeling this way. Please go to a mental health hospital or urgent care and be assessed. That doesn’t always mean that you will be admitted, but the professionals will know how to get you help. Healthy bodies are not meant to feel this way. It’s a biological thing, it is beyond you. Think of it as you being sick; if you weren’t feeling well, you’d go to the doctor. Be honest with people trying to help you. Do not minimize. I feel very protective over people who feel this way because someone I was engaged to had similar symptoms as you, and he took his own life. OCD, depression, trauma, and ADHD are so hard to manage individually, let alone combined. The death of my fiance left huge holes in the lives of so many people, even though he thought that everyone would be better off if he didn’t exist. That wasn’t true for him, and it’s not true for you. I know that experiencing a combination of mental illnesses is very hard, I’m intimately aware of that, and I need you to know that professional help is out there. Please get medical attention. People care about you. I care about you.

Emilia<3

Date posted: 7d

@24ozpersephonenoice Thank you for the length post. Even typing right now is a struggle because it’s my obsessive compulsive disorder is really bad 😭 it’s such a responsibility to keep up with it including the depression and the potential ADHD and the complex trauma and stuff. I’m doing ERP on my own too because my parents can’t afford to get therapy. Let alone for themselves which is bad enough. But thank you though for making me feel seen. I appreciate everything. Oh and I’m so incredibly sorry about your loss. Your husband sounded like a good man. Wishing you the best :) Oh and I’m not really aware of how important this is 😅 if it’s a big deal or not. I kind of just exist, but everyday has been getting worse though, and I think I’m in the midst of a mental health crisis…and also I have no memory of what happened yesterday. I know it’s bad but I’m just so detached from reality. I hope I don’t do anything I regret 😅 but I’m aware I do need serious help tho I guess that a good thing 😭

anxiousashhh

Date posted: 25w

feeling low

I think I’m going through the hardest depression right now. I’ve never felt so compelled to just stop getting up and stop living. I know it’s hard to hear, I just really feel bad. Right now I even feel like an attention seeker. I just wanted to know, are there any tips to raise me from this hole im in? Has anyone else felt like this an pulled themselves out?

violettag6

Date posted: 22w

Not doing great

TW I’m feeling really bad about myself today. I feel like a fraud and a liar. I’ve been unable to enjoy my time with my girlfriend because I’m bombarded with my thoughts. I’ve been asking for reassurance from so many people and nothing is helping. Nothing makes me feel better anymore and I’m worried that this is just how it’s going to be for forever. I miss when I could just be happy and not overthink so much. I miss being able to get through my days without this crippling anxiety. I’m worried there’s going to be a day where I realize I have no fight left in me

issphra 🫶🏻

Date posted: 19w

an emotional vent :(

I don’t know if it’s worth it to keep going. I have so many diagnoses, so little support, and constant struggles with finding the right medication. My immune system is weak, I have multiple deficiencies, and I’m dealing with so many physical health problems on top of severe OCD. It’s just too much. On top of everything, my family treats me so not okay. Every single day is a fight just to keep going—to wake up, to eat, to take care of myself even a little. I’ve lost over ten pounds in the last two weeks from how depressed I’ve been. And instead of support, all I get is blame. My family constantly throws my struggles in my face, calling me selfish, as if I’m choosing this. I am trying so hard to push past all of this. But after five long months of severe OCD, anxiety, depression, panic disorder, and everything else making life unbearable, I am exhausted. And to be called lazy? Selfish? *Worthless*? How am I supposed to keep going when the people around me refuse to see how hard I’m trying? I don’t want this anymore. None of this suffering feels worth it. What am I fighting for just to be treated this way by my own family? To be yelled at for the look on my face, when my face reflects nothing but the stress, panic, and despair I’m drowning in? Am I still supposed to smile for them? This isn’t fair. No one should have to live like this. I don’t deserve to be treated this way, I’m really trying to keep going, but I just want everything to end.

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