I just wanted to apologize for my last post, it was very angry and fearful, and I don’t think it was a great reflection of myself. I’ll try to avoid posting anything nearly as frantic or emotional again! Seemed like a lot of people avoided commenting on it, so I’ll avoid doing that again. Keep fighting your OCD guys!
I haven’t seen the post but you’re allowed to share your emotions and post just like everyone else on here :) Your emotions matter too and I would care if you’re upset. Maybe a lot of people haven’t seen it because so many people post everyday. I also find that since so many people here are struggling themselves, they can find it hard to give advice to others during this time but that’s nothing personal towards you 🙏 You are entitled to your feelings as well
@OneDayAtATimee Absolutely! I was just worried I came off as very hateful and negative, I was frustrated and scared, but I have to realize that my trauma doesn’t shape my future and that I was a kid under influence! Hopefully one day, I’ll be able to come to terms with that and help teens that fell into the same trap I did 💜
@Julian2006 No worries at all :) We all get angry and feel the need to vent our frustrations sometimes, especially when we’re struggling mentally with such heavily topics such as trauma and OCD. You are entitled to your struggles, boundaries,and feelings That’s an amazing life goal of yours to help people and in my opinion, you’ve actually already been on that path for a long while now cuz I see you helping so many ppl on this app all the time! 👏 Your pain has a purpose, whether OCD related or trauma related 💪 And you can continue to use it as a motivator going forward to save others and I think that’s a great hobby or field of work for you to pursue :)
@OneDayAtATimee This means a lot to me! I try, even though I end up triggering myself with the topics. I recognize that it’s a bit obsessive, so I try to distance myself every now and then from the app, but helping people with similar issues really helps me too, I think! Maybe one day, I’ll help enough and be confident that I’m not a bad person! Anyways, thank you so much for commenting, you’re always very supportive and understanding, you’re definitely a pillar in the NOCD community!
@Julian2006 Oh yes I 100% feel you on that, that we love to try to help but this app is indeed veryyyy triggering 😅 So I try to take breaks too. Just know that your help hasn’t gone unnoticed and I’m sorry and feel bad that we weren’t there to be able to support you on what you have posted previously I’m not even trying to reassure you lol but a bad person wouldn’t even care to be helping people. But you go above and beyond for people, expecting nothing in return. You are one of the most patient, kind and knowledgeable ppl I have seen on this app! But of course your OCD won’t let you see the good in yourself right now and that’s totallyyy expected! OCD sucks 😆 But your confidence will come in time, especially when your anxiety lowers and you consistently decrease the compulsions 👍 Thank you so much for your kind words :D I highly appreciate them, friend!! ❤️
@OneDayAtATimee Absolutely! And again, I can’t emphasize this enough, thank you for being so supportive! It’s nice to hear something good for once (of course, when I’m not reassurance seeking!), it helps me keep going! I can’t wait to finally feel confident enough to be able to help people without hurting myself in the process! You’re amazing, I appreciate the influence you had on this app, and I really love how you’re always setting a positive tone for an otherwise pretty chaotic and negative disorder! Thank you! 🙏
@Julian2006 Oh you’re so welcome! My pleasure to help out :D And I appreciate your encouragement towards me as well thanks so so much! ❤️🩹 Keep going and being awesome Julian 💪 Everyone on this app is in this battle together so you’re never truly alone 🫶 You’re welcome again :)
@OneDayAtATimee You’re right! We gotta keep pushing! Thank you for being you!
You’re absolutely allowed to share whether you’re calm, frantic, happy, sad, or even in the middle of a panic attack. It’s okay. We all do it. That’s honestly a huge part of what this community is for 💛 Sometimes posts get shadowbanned or just buried in the feed, so it might not be that people are ignoring you. It’s possible your post just didn’t show up for others at the time, or only appeared on your own feed. That happens a lot. So if your post got no comments or reactions, please don’t take that as a bad sign. I know it’s easy to fixate on that stuff, especially with OCD, but it’s really not a reflection of you, or your worth, or what people think of you 🩵 Sometimes people just can’t relate in that moment, or your post didn’t show up, or they didn’t know how to respond. The only time I’ve really noticed a post not getting much interaction is when the writing itself is super hard to follow (like grammatically confusing or all over the place) especially if it was written during a panic and nothing really makes sense. But even then, that’s totally understandable. It doesn’t mean you did something wrong. You still have every right to post, whether you’re panicked or calm. Honestly, I post the most when I’m spiraling lol, so if that helps you feel less alone, there you go. Also, I’ve had posts from months ago that got zero interaction at first, and then someone found them way later and replied because they were going through something similar and finally felt seen. Even therapists have commented on my older posts. So just because something does not get traction right now does not mean it is not helping someone out there eventually. You shouldn’t judge whether your post was “okay” based on interaction. If someone thinks a post is genuinely inappropriate or harmful, they’ll usually say something or report it. Otherwise, you are totally valid posting whatever you need to in the moment 🫂💛
@issphra 🫶🏻 Thank you so much! I started to self doubt thinking that I said too much, or I came off as a very negative person. I understand that I am flawed, but I know I have the motive to do good and I strive to always do better! Thank you so much for this support, it really shows me that I’m not alone. I think I did get shadow banned or something, and I don’t blame the system! I was a bit vulgar and emotional, and it definitely is plausible that they recognized the language as negative and chose to hide it. Regardless, I’m glad that the people on this app are so understanding 💜
You just provided reassurance
@HenryT I did?
@Julian2006 Compulsive apologizing
@HenryT Ah crap, I didn’t even realize, thank you for pointing that out
@Julian2006 No problem, I'm currently distracting from anxiety right now by compulsive checking this app, so we're in the same boat
@HenryT Pff, feel you there! It’s been a bad habit of mine to hop on this app and compare experiences/comment on people’s posts, it’s a shame that we can’t even connect without the OCD hooking on that!
hello everybody! 🔞 last saturday i did something i shouldn't have done, and i even posted about it here, but no one responded to my post (it's okay, i completely understand). to inform you, since i deleted the post: i consumed erotic literature where two 14 year old children had a relationship (☠️), on wattpad. and i consumed this theme to see if i was really attracted to it..i think. i'm unsure about it, but i know i didn't feel anything consuming it. i was feeling extremely anxious and felt extremely bad the next day, and i only got better when i talked to my girlfriend and an online friend. i'm still feeling bad, i know i shouldn't have done it and whenever i'm feeling genuinely good, it comes back to haunt me.. i'm worried because i'm not feeling enough guilt or remorse, idk.. i feel bad and i regret it, and i can't stand going through this problem anymore.. i was in therapy a few months ago, but i stopped for financial reasons and my psychologist doesn't see me virtually anymore. it's been difficult.. just a vent.
I shouldn’t have done this (trigger trigger trigger!!) So about a month ago..maybe I watched this video (as a compulsion to prove to myself) The video was called “interview with a p3d0” And basically it was what it says, I watched or more like listened to half of it…after I was disgusted by the person, but now all I can think of is every little thing I do, I feel as if tho I’m monitoring every thought/moment and feeling I have it’s torturous and I hate it..I feel disgusting, the person in the video has empathy and sympathy and had those feelings yk, I can’t explain it you’d have to watch the video yourself but please don’t it will ruin your journey…I feel more hopeless then before, my OCD is telling me so many things trying to convince me things that Ik aren’t true, I’m just really scared I don’t want to be that person I want to be a good cousin and person to my family, I’m sick of my head and myself, I’m so tired that sometimes I can’t even think straight, my head is always in pain and idek how to help myself..compulsions have been becoming more and more exhausting… I need advice or even someone to relate to, I understand I shouldn’t have done what I did but idk how to forget it.. I had made this post already but when someone replied I couldn’t see it for some reason so I’m uploading it again
I've had this app for awhile and was really nervous to post,comment or like anything.I still am,and frankly I've been having a really rough time which mostly includes ocd symptom,guilt/shame and agoraphobia which is not a fun combo but a small part of me is so tired of hiding and feeling awful all the time,even if at times I feel like I deserve it.I've been wanting to dabble into my hobbies like drawing or gaming but even my hobbies have been stressful & these negative feelings have been so awful for so long that I feel like I'm standing between two roads all the time yet feel horrified and worried either path when it comes to almost any decision will be wrong or not worth it in the end(and I hate that I feel like so.).I'm sure people can relate but the heavy loneliness and dehumanizing feelings is so awful,it's so good at it too.😭 I'm not diagnosed yet but I share alot of symptoms (interested to figure that out about myself soon.),but until I get medical insurance figured out I don't think I'll have access to professional help yet so for now I've just been watching some professionals online and I might finally read 'Freedom From Obsessive Personality Disorder' and see what it can offer.ANYWAYS,I'm trying to force myself to post so I can to people irl and online in any way I can train my brain to not stay so terrified of everything/everyone so,how has your day been?I hope it's been going well,if you've read this book or have any good suggests please feel free to let me know!
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