Hello does anyone get such severe panic and anxiety that comes along with bad intrusive thoughts. Then the thoughts give you more panic because you feel you may act on them? Then I worry I’m going crazy, can anyone relate? Thank for reading
Yeah I can relate and it used to be a lot worse. I still have intrusive thoughts but at this point my panic attacks are mainly from ptsd cause I'm at a point with my ocd where even though it sucks I can recognize, at least sometimes, that it's just ocd talking. Idk much about you and I don't think we're supposed to give reassurance, but honestly if you were gonna act on those thoughts you probably would've already. Just try to remember that intrusive thoughts are ego-dystonic and go against our values and beliefs which is why we're so upset by them
I forgot to add but my therapist has a mantra he likes to give people, it's something like "this does not define me, this does not control me" honestly thoughts mean nothing. You're defined by your actions and character, not by any thoughts you have
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Last night I was dealing with EXTREME pocd thoughts and went into a heavy panic attack. It was harsh and my head was pounding and I felt so hopeless but I woke up this morning feeling better knowing that although anxiety attacks last long and can be hard to go through they go away <3 know that in the toughest moments it won’t always be like that it’ll go over soon!
Yep. You are not alone at all. It’s a spiral effect sometimes and it doesn’t happen slowly (atleast for me). At that point sometimes if you are really in that panic moment, it’s good to just sit in it. To observe. To understand that this is what defeating OCD feels like. I have found that inviting the thoughts in rather than them kicking down the door, leads to them being way less intense. You got this!
I’m having a very bad evening with my intrusive thoughts. I was doing really good dealing with them but tonight one hit me hard. I’ve been having a lot of different intrusive thoughts but I’ll have one occasionally about hurting my mom or my dog who I love and they’re the only family I have in my life. They’re my world. I was helping my mom put away the dishes and I had the big kitchen knife in my hand and my intrusive thought was you could stab your mom. And then my brain said I had a twitch in my hand and that meant I wanted to do it. Let me just say that I wouldn’t hurt a fly. I actually caught a fly in a glass and put it outside instead of killing it this evening before this intrusive thought happened. I’m such a gentle and compassionate and caring person and these thoughts instantly cause me to have a panic attack. And I have no one to talk to them about. I know they’re hard for my mom to hear and I don’t want to be any more of a burden than I already am. I do desperately want to tell her and have her reassure me that I’m not crazy or a psycho. Then my thoughts wander to if your hand did flinch could you be a psychopath. Is hurting someone in you. I know it’s not but I feel like my mind is out to get me and hurt me. I’m working so hard and I thought I was doing so good but I need to know why I have these thoughts. They’re not ok. I need someone to help me make sense of why. I know we aren’t supposed to ruminate but I shouldn’t have thoughts like this about people I love and care about the most in the world.
I’m sharing this bc I need advice or even support from anyone who can relate. If you can’t relate and don’t think you’ll say anything helpful or kind pls don’t comment anything… I’ve been struggling with somethings that’s making me question myself. There has been moments while self pleasuring when I get intrusive thoughts, in those moments it feels like I’m enjoying or even self pleasuring myself bc of the thought. Right after I immediately have an anxiety attack and my HEART drops bc it feels terrible I feel like a disgusting monster :( ppl have told me I haven’t done a bad bc of how intense my guilt and panic are but I keep thinking that MAYBE I made a horrible decision in the moment and the guilt is just realising that it’s just wrong this doesn’t make sense to me because I’ve always told myself that I would never act on this in 1 million years and I’ve been known that these things are wrong so I’m just like constantly questioning myself these feelings and exact same situation has happened two times already I even promised myself that I wouldn’t act on anything beforehand and yeah, I still felt like I did act on my thought during my alone time I’m genuinely convinced that I’m a horrible and it’s even got into the point where I don’t wanna be here anymore and I don’t even think this is my OCD :( tbh
I struggle so bad with intrusive thoughts. They can be so bad that I'll cry because I KNOW that's not how I feel or want to do. (Too embarrassed to say what they're about) I'll constantly try to figure out why I have them, and constantly figure out what they mean, causing me to constantly circle around and around. I had to get on anxeity meds, which helped a little but the thoughts still happen. How do you help yourself with this? How do you know that you're just not some physcopath? 😅
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