im so tired of trying to express my feeling and feeling so dumb. im so angry and my chest hurts from sadness and stress all the time with no one to talk to, this is so lonely. the only friend i had got annoyed with me and said maybe this is happening because i dont listen. i hate this so much and i gained so much weight from stress. i cant look pretty or happy if i tried.
Hey, I hear you. What you’re feeling is so real, and I’m really sorry you’re carrying this much pain. OCD can be such a brutal, isolating thing, especially when it feels like no one truly understands what’s going on in your head. You’re not dumb for struggling, and you’re not broken for being overwhelmed. You’re doing the best you can with something that can be relentless, and that takes strength, even when you feel like you’re barely holding on. It’s heartbreaking when the people we count on don’t get it or make us feel like a burden. But your feelings matter. You deserve support, compassion, and a safe place to be honest about what you’re going through, without judgment. If you haven’t already, please consider reaching out to a therapist who really understands OCD. You’re not alone in this, even if it feels like it right now. And none of this makes you any less worthy of love or peace. You’re not too much, you’re just hurting. And that’s okay. You don’t have to carry this forever. There is hope, even if it’s hard to see right now.
thank you so much
I feel like no one understands me at all especially because none of my friends have ocd
i fee the same way. tysm is there something i could add you on?
I gain weight from stress too , and get cavities I also don’t like expressing my feelings, bc once I do, I cry like a baby and I get so mad at myself The reason. Why I don’t like expressing also is bc I feel like no listens or care even they say they do , I feel like it’s a waste of time for me
literally are you me? i feel the exact same way. i tried to practice not crying when i express my feelings but i always end up crying. i also feel like no one cares because they never show that they do. its hard brushing my teeth and stuff, having to do basic stuff everyday is too much
thanks for replying to me, i wanted someone to relate ateast
@ocdlife_ Omg! Yesss that’s crazy, I try to practice too but literally even work bosses I’ll cry when I vent , ugh drives me insane
@ocdlife_ Yes and also only brush my teeth once a day , it’s stress for me too especially that I have a baby , currently separated from my marriage , and can’t even think for my self , I need to care more for myself than for others
@Bunnyox - yes and take your time too because life is hard and let alone having ocd too
I completely understand how you feel. OCD is eating me alive. I am always here if you ever need a friend to talk to you aren’t alone. None of us are🫶
Just know that you are heard and valued, no matter who is there for you in person, rely on this community and it can help carry the burden of feelings.
thank you, i feel so safe here
I understand and I’m so sorry this is happening to you. However please know that there are people who have your back no matter what, okay?
yes i appreciate you guys more than ever
A fact that many of you may already be aware of but that I just learned recently is that OCD is considered by the World Health Organization to be one of the top ten most disabling illnesses - not in the top ten for mental/psychological conditions, but out of ALL illnesses. Thankfully, it's also one of the most treatable, but that doesn't make it any less grueling, especially since many of us struggle with it for years before seeking out treatment. It's SO IMPORTANT for us to allow ourselves some grace and try not to beat ourselves up for struggling with it and feeling overwhelmed at times.
i honesty did not know that, thank you for telling me this, i hope i can get the treatment i need soon.
I've been bedridden with anxiety and haven't eaten much. I tried going on a walk and broke down halfway through to cry. It kind if helped my physical anxiety but hasn't helped my ocd much. ERP is so difficult. It just makes me exhausted and anxious and cry. And I don't even feel a little better afterwards, so what's the point? I get I'm supposed to build up resilience but when? when do I finally feel some reward? I'm suffering, I don't have the energy to fight these thoughts when all the thoughts I have are rumination or intrusive. Medications haven't worked for me either. Maybe I'm not going to get better. Happy new year to me.
I can't stop thinking about ending my life. I feel like I'm not even living, I'm just surviving. Everyone is capable of being a person and functioning and I'm just stuck here avoiding everything. My psychiatrist said my ocd is severe and it will all take time and I'll start erp and I'm already on medication but I just feel so depressed and like I won't be able to handle erp and it's already too late for me. I feel inhuman, it's debilitating. My major theme is just fear or contamination, I can't even make myself a meal I can't touch anything in the kitchen. I get stuck in the shower for 2 hours and when I don't shower because I'm depressed I feel like a walking germ. My hands are a mess, my school work is shit, I avoid and avoid and I'm just so tired of "living" like this. My psychiatrist said they don't have any therapists available right now like.... excuse me? What do you mean u don't have any 😭 I honestly don't even know why I'm typing this becuase nothing helps, nothing ever will. I'm so deep into this I can't get out, my room looks like shit, I can't live in this body anymore, I really can't. I let everyone down, I am and will be such a dissapointment. I don't have any dreams or goals or passions I just wasn't made to be here. I don't know how or who to ask for help like there's nothing anyone can do, I'm already on meds. I can't keep being like this, seeing everyone judge me for acting insane.
some days I wake up with so much dread and guilt. It makes it so hard to keep going. I open my eyes and I’m hit with a wave of nausea and terror. I feel ashamed of my compulsions and my OCD. I feel like a monster for my checking compulsions. For momentarily sexualizing things that shouldn’t be sexualized out of anxiety. I’m ashamed of a lot that I give into because of anxiety. Confessing things that are meaningless to my boyfriend. I feel so awful and unworthy of existing and of love. I feel hopeless I don’t want to keep pushing, the more I push the more meta my OCD becomes and the more guilt I feel for this mental illness. The more confusing it becomes to do ERP. If compulsions are a choice, they feel like life or death and it’s driving me insane, I beat myself up so badly over them I’m scared of compulsions, I’m scared of thoughts, I’m scared to be awake, I’m even scared of sleeping because my intrusions and compulsions haunt me there too. I spend my dreams trying to explain or justify my OCD and compulsions to people. I’m exhausted, I want this to stop so badly. My severe OCD isn’t feeling any less severe and it’s been months. I don’t want to keep questioning my every move but I’m so hyperaware of everything I do. I’m so tired. Some days I don’t even have tears to cry with. I’m just so full of despair and shame
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