confused writer
- Date posted
- 19w
HOCD made you feel horn.y?
Like I feel geroinals ALL DAY and it’s stuck… I think I’m bi. But this still drives me nuts.
thatguytron32thatguytron32
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 19w
Lol it’s normal. Gotta treat it like you do intrusive thoughts and emotions. Your brain controls your bodily sensations.
Ms.shelovesfrogsMs.shelovesf...
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- 19w
Righttttt
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- Therapist
- Date posted
- 19w
Hope I can help you confused writer, It sounds like you are having an unwanted sensation that is causing you distress. It can be confusing because it sounds like it is not aligning with your intended desires. There are times when the body has an automatic response that does not reflect the actual feelings or intentions. You are not alone as many people experience it. Here is an article about groinal response and how to deal with it. https://www.treatmyocd.com/what-is-ocd/info/ocd-stats-and-science/why-ocd-can-cause-a-groinal-response-and-what-you-can-do-about-it
confused writerconfused writer
- Date posted
- 19w
@Kimberly Gruver Thank you very much!
V@lentine2V@lentine2
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- 19w
Yeah it’d last FOREVER when I had this theme. Made me even more stressed bc I was a teenager at the time
Imaan7Imaan7
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- 19w
I'm not even sure how you guys differentiate between groinals and real full body and brain arousal. For me I just feel attracted and aroused, while simultaneously burning with depression and anxiety.
confused writerconfused writer
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- 19w
@Imaan7 Yes Same
CantalCantal
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- 19w
If it’s HOCD you aren’t bi or gay or whatever you feel. Groinals are normal.
confused writerconfused writer
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- 19w
@Cantal Not true and very triggering. Bi ppl have HOCD too. It makes you feel like u r attracted only to one gender and “cancel” the other one. Important to be gentle with this subject❤️
CantalCantal
- Date posted
- 19w
@confused writer Oh well absolutely I agree with that and didn’t mean it in any kind of rude way. What I mean is if you have anxiety over the idea it’s most likely OCD and not any sort of bisexuality based on what I understand.
Ms.shelovesfrogsMs.shelovesf...
- Date posted
- 19w
@confused writer He didn't put it the right way but what he implies is that hocd is a subtype of sexual orientation ocd that happens to straight people. So-ocd is the umbrella name for what affects us all but when you want to break it down we now have homosexual soocd, heterosexual soocd and bisexual soocd
confused writerconfused writer
- Date posted
- 19w
@Cantal Yes I understood I didn’t mean to say something bad 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼 I appreciate your comment !!!! And I feel like I am bi because I had many “reasons” before but now it makes me doubt EVERYTHING as it likes to play 🤣
confused writerconfused writer
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- 19w
@Ms.shelovesfrogs Yes
CantalCantal
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- 19w
@confused writer I should’ve worded it better, my mistake! But I have SO-OCD about not being straight even though I’ve always been attracted to women.
confused writerconfused writer
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- 19w
@Cantal I FEEL YOU. So for me I read so much online that even what I thought that was real feels unreal. I know sh!t by now 🤣
geodrimilisgeodrimilis
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- 19w
@confused writer Are you afraid that you’re into one gender or that you’re into the same gender as yours I’m confused
CantalCantal
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- 19w
@confused writer Absolutely feel that. Researching is a killer
confused writerconfused writer
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- 19w
@geodrimilis That I’m a lesbian and not bi sexual
confused writerconfused writer
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- 19w
@Cantal YES. Since I read about comp het my life destroyed 🤣
CantalCantal
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- 19w
@confused writer Is that competitive heterosexuality? As opposed to casual? Dang sign me up
geodrimilisgeodrimilis
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- 19w
@confused writer So you know you are bisexual
confused writerconfused writer
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- 19w
@geodrimilis I feel like denying being lesbian but yes
geodrimilisgeodrimilis
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- 19w
@confused writer Yeah that’s not like so-ocd in general than hocd cuz for me I’m only afraid I’m into men
confused writerconfused writer
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- 19w
@geodrimilis Yes same
CantalCantal
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- 19w
@confused writer All seriousness I am curious what is comp het?
confused writerconfused writer
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- 19w
@Cantal I don’t recommend reading. Very triggering 🙏🏼
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geodrimilis
- Date posted
- 20w
Hocd is literally a clown in my head.
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Ampyyy
- Date posted
- 13w
Hocd
I’ve had hocd for around 11 months now. It’s gotten to the point where I’m just convinced that I am bi. I still like boys like I always have, but I feel like I like girls too. I have no anxiety either or active thoughts. It’s just kinda there like yep I’m bi and ok with it. Anyone else? Just curious.
geodrimilis
- Date posted
- 11w
About hocd
This shit has to be one of the most confusing subtypes of ocd because no matter what you will never find clarity. When it started it wasn’t as bad and confusing because it was mostly anxiety. But when it started getting physical that’s when it got extremely confusing because I feel tension and fear when thinking of gay stuff but while testing I get arousal sensations so the big question is “if I am afraid of it how can my body respond as if I’m into it and if I’m into it how does my body respond with fear as if I’m not” and it’s endless. I wish I never started testing my arousal so I never started getting groinals to gay stuff in the first place. But there’s no going back now.
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