Prayed for world war 3

This wasn’t an ocd intrusive thought necessarily. It wasn’t really a well thought out prayer either. I was in the middle of a prayer obsession. I was thinking of things I could pray for. I wanted to die, so without really thinking it out too much I thought “please let world war 3 happen, amen,” and then didn’t really care and regretted it afterward. It feels insignificant to me, but it’s bad to most people. This is a common thing with a lot of prayers and I’m not sure why. I’m not normally a malicious person. I don’t know if the difference is people think I care a ton when I do them, sit down and have a connection with god, and say them. I’m not very religious and know nothing is going to happen. This has happened for other prayers too. I don’t have a desire to keep praying for stuff like that to happen, but I did, and I did stuff like that for a lot of other things too. And I meant it in the moment, but couldn’t have care less 2 seconds afterward.

Anonymoususe...

Date posted: Yesterday

Another example: I had a maladaptive daydream I liked, but it involved escaping the world in a spaceship from aliens and going on a space adventure. Only issue is, in the fantasy, while the aliens take over the world, a bunch of people die. Well, I wanted the fantasy anyway, so I thought about it, thought I’d like it, and said “amen,” meaning that it happened in my head. 2 seconds later, couldn’t care less. Another thing. My mind made up a scenario where the aliens somehow attacked specific groups of people (I was worried about prayers becoming racist). I still wanted the space adventure fantasy, so I prayed for it, and didn’t really care 5 seconds later. This became a pattern with multiple things that were even somewhat messed up, but I prayed to pray for anything I might have wanted at all, acknowledging how bad it could be

hi i

Date posted: Yesterday

These sound like intrusive thoughts to me. God knows your heart and he knows you didn’t mean it even if you think you did. First of all if you didn’t care you wouldn’t be lamenting over it enough to admit your regret. On the other hand you not caring when you first had that thought was probably because your reaction was “woah that’s was weird, anyways.” which is the correct response to intrusive thoughts. Then your ocd kicked in and was like “but you should be worried about this what’s wrong why aren’t you worried” and then you spiral. I know from personal experience. I know you said you’re not a very religious person but If it’s ok I will keep you in my prayers for your peace and comfort. God knows how hard this is. Keep going friend❤️

Anonymoususe...

Date posted: Yesterday

@hi i The issue is it isn’t intrusive thoughts. It was a prayer I wanted when I did it. It was just sort of like “world war 3 would be nice, amen.” And that was it. And then I didn’t want to do it again, but I meant it. And it’s similar to the fantasy obsession. I absolutely meant it in the moment, but then didn’t care. Maybe it was to prove that I could do it. I don’t know if this makes sense, but if I wanted a piece of cake to pop up in front of me, I could pray for that and mean it. So I feel like it’s something like that

Anonymoususe...

Date posted: Yesterday

@hi i Like I think I did it and meant it, but I wouldn’t have even had the thought if ocd didn’t give me it. Like I wouldn’t normally pray for a piece of cake to appear in front of me if ocd didn’t give me that thought, but I decided to anyway

JessieJoy

Date posted: 23h ago

It's all OCD

Anonymoususe...

Date posted: 22h ago

@JessieJoy Possibly, but in a weird way. I believe I mean these prayers when I do them. Like about the fantasy thing escaping earth. I want it, so I prayed for it and meant it. That includes and acknowledgment that people will die in it. But if I didn’t do that, there would have been other issues. I think I genuinely prayed for something I shouldn’t have once, and ever since then, instead of accepting it was bad, I’ve had to allow myself to pray for anything I could possibly want, to prove it wasn’t bad. Ever since then, I feel like I’m in too deep of a bind

LKRoseCity

Date posted: 3h ago

Thats not "Thee" God you are connecting with. They wouldn't connect with those kind of thoughts...

KelSul73

Date posted: 24w ago

Spiritual warfare or OCD?

Hey guys- I don’t know if any of you with religion/spirituality ocd struggle with the “unacceptable thoughts” about like evil and stuff but I’m struggling.. it feels like I believe that I want the evil stuff because I had demon-like voices in my head as ahead where I went to talk to God when I was experiencing great distress and then these evil thoughts came in and I let them in and like “ok-ed” evil stuff. Especially because I felt so forced into my faith journey as a kid so it’s like that “feeling rejected -> rebellion thing) but I also know that but I also have such fond memories of feeling so close to God to leaning on Him for so many things. It’s so hard because 90% of my memories as a kid, I struggled with severe ocd and no one knew what it was or how debilitating it could be I’m trying the ERP with these thoughts but😭 have any of you gone through the same things? It’s so strong In my mind because I know there’s actual spiritual warfare so I feel like - pray for me guys

Religion & Spirituality OCD

mila.3296

Date posted: 21w ago

religious ocd

I had a blasphemous thought against the holy spirit s few days ago a bc it’s been on my mind. So today i asked my mom: “ does God take someone’s life away if they committed the sin of blasphemy” and she responded with “Maybe yes or maybe no, he can maybe give that person days to live until the destined day that person has to die, dies.” And after she said that i’ve been kind of anxious and asking for forgiveness. Keep in mind that i wasn’t feel bad about this thought before. Idk why. Now i’m anxious.

King silly

Date posted: 12w ago

Not seeking reassurance, just prayers

Lately my OCD has been very horrible, it’s been more convincing than ever to the point where I’m genuinely convinced that I like this stuff, when I get a thought, I’ll hear my intrusive thoughts go “oooh, I like that, I’d do that.” and I just don’t freak out nor feel bad, I just feel like I like it even more, and feel like I would do/act on it and like it, and the feeling is strong and it lingers forever? It genuinely feels like I do, and I’m just lying now, i can’t tell if I make these thoughts worse or anything All I remember mostly just being like confused sometimes when these thoughts happen, but since I’m getting strong emotions that I like it, my brain says that means I did and I’m worried about that being true because I don’t understand nor know It’s like I am resisting to like this stuff now, it’s even tougher now than it was before

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