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So I had a panic attack a while ago to “kill mom” and I forgot about the thought until a few days later. When it came back I was mentally drained and it lasted for 2 months or more. It eventually went away but it is back. I get other intrusive thoughts but they go away after a hour or so. Why am I stressing over “kill mom” so much. I just get irritated that it won’t go away. I’m beginning to think it’s a different mental illness maybe just anxiety? I’m not sure to be honest. It just appears and sits there and I feel like I’m doomed and a pyscho and worry that I’ll never forget the thought.

ninjastone

Date posted: 11d ago

Sometimes I feel I simply think of things because they are horrifying. Unfortunately I have a great imagination- a blessing and a curse. Its hard to stop thinking about something, but easy to start thinking about something. Every once in a while I try to give myself a break from my horrifying imagination by trying to use my whimsical artistic imagination. Almost like strengthening it like a muscle.

TBLbolts2025!!

Date posted: 11d ago

The fact that you’re absolutely terrified of the thought is a good thing! This is Harm OCD defined. Your value system is so distressed so the OCD will continue to spin to “figure it out” It’s a fight none of us in the history of OCD have ever won… Laugh it off, it’s just your risk assessment stuck on TEN.

Ericseal18

Date posted: 11d ago

@TBLbolts2025!! Yeah, even days when my anxiety is low and I get the thought I get thoughts like “since I’m not worrying am I really scared of this thought” like sometimes i question if i really wanna do it because my OCD is tricking me

TBLbolts2025!!

Date posted: 11d ago

@Ericseal18 It’s all a ruse… The body’s risk assessment out of order for a bit.

Steven55!

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 11d ago

OCD attaches itself to whomever and whatever you value, or what you fear. I take it you love your mom, so OCD attaches itself to your feelings about her. It's not unusual to experience harm thoughts toward anyone you value: significant other, spouse, parent, sibling, child, even a beloved pet. You are not psycho or a monster, you have harm OCD. As someone else wrote on this stream, if you truly were psychotic you wouldn't be agonizing over these thoughts. Are you in therapy with a trained OCD therapist who uses ERP therapy? ERP is very effective in treating harm OCD and a host of other themes. NOCD can fix you up with a great one. Hope this helps.

Darkacademician

Date posted: 19w ago

When do the thoughts go away

How long does it take for the intrusive thoughts to go away

BeeCee87

Date posted: 18w ago

Intrusive thoughts Help.

I’m having a very bad evening with my intrusive thoughts. I was doing really good dealing with them but tonight one hit me hard. I’ve been having a lot of different intrusive thoughts but I’ll have one occasionally about hurting my mom or my dog who I love and they’re the only family I have in my life. They’re my world. I was helping my mom put away the dishes and I had the big kitchen knife in my hand and my intrusive thought was you could stab your mom. And then my brain said I had a twitch in my hand and that meant I wanted to do it. Let me just say that I wouldn’t hurt a fly. I actually caught a fly in a glass and put it outside instead of killing it this evening before this intrusive thought happened. I’m such a gentle and compassionate and caring person and these thoughts instantly cause me to have a panic attack. And I have no one to talk to them about. I know they’re hard for my mom to hear and I don’t want to be any more of a burden than I already am. I do desperately want to tell her and have her reassure me that I’m not crazy or a psycho. Then my thoughts wander to if your hand did flinch could you be a psychopath. Is hurting someone in you. I know it’s not but I feel like my mind is out to get me and hurt me. I’m working so hard and I thought I was doing so good but I need to know why I have these thoughts. They’re not ok. I need someone to help me make sense of why. I know we aren’t supposed to ruminate but I shouldn’t have thoughts like this about people I love and care about the most in the world.

Chels0212

Date posted: 12w ago

Intrusive thoughts

I struggle so bad with intrusive thoughts. They can be so bad that I'll cry because I KNOW that's not how I feel or want to do. (Too embarrassed to say what they're about) I'll constantly try to figure out why I have them, and constantly figure out what they mean, causing me to constantly circle around and around. I had to get on anxeity meds, which helped a little but the thoughts still happen. How do you help yourself with this? How do you know that you're just not some physcopath? 😅

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