Cantal
- Date posted
- 33w
POCD
This popped up randomly. I know logically I’m not one as I’ve only ever dated my age range and I don’t believe there’s a such thing as “latent philia” but goodness is this one weird
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- Therapist
- Date posted
- 33w
Hello, OCD will use anything to make people feel uncertain to encourage them to engage in compulsions. This is especially true with attraction, because it is hard to find tangible evidence for attraction outside of feelings or bodily sensations. Also, feelings are already difficult to define and rarely provide a clear cause for their presence. Here's a video that talks in more depth about POCD. I hope it is helpful. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bg-VdyA9MoQ
moon0270moon0270
- Date posted
- 33w
yeah, like with any other theme, it will try it's hardest to convince you of it even when it makes literally no sense and there's no reason to think it. it's tough. sorry you're dealing with it too :(
CantalCantal
- Date posted
- 33w
@moon027097 Literally it just showed up a few days ago. I power through it though, still spend time with my daughter, all that.
moon0270moon0270
- Date posted
- 33w
@Cantal this is great. the best thing you can do is carry on with your life as usual, even if it's still in the background nagging at you
littlecreek24littlecreek24
- Date posted
- 33w
Mine popped up out of nowhere a couple years ago while I was working at a daycare. What's frustrating is that I also have no history of it (this was my 2nd year working with no problems before) and have always dated my own age but for some reason I started reviewing memories and finding "evidence" that I was one. Definitely one of the most terrifying themes I've had, but unfortunately a common one.
CantalCantal
- Date posted
- 33w
@littlecreek24 How have you been with it recently?
littlecreek24littlecreek24
- Date posted
- 33w
@Cantal Still there. For a while I was afraid to rewatch shows I love because they have child characters, but I decided that I have to keep watching them anyway if I want to get over it. Not sure if it worked, because my main theme ended up changing to morality(?) so the p thing has kind of taken a back seat. It's still around, although I'm not quite as obsessed as before.
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Shaodidi
- Date posted
- 25w
Sleep and pocd
When I woke up today I got intense feelings of arousal and urges to masturbate and thoughts of this 12 year old kid I’ve seen irl started popping up, idk why it all happened, I can’t tell if I liked it or not. Or if I wanted it or not.
Anonymous
- Date posted
- 25w
Pocd?
Since I don't experience attraction towards children so I'm not a p*do. But I've seen some not really child looking character. Thought he's attractive. And scared if he's minor so googled his age. Says 11. But I didn't stopped and kept thought "no but he doesn't look 11", "he's attractive" I'm so scared. Some people says don't live in past but my another past mistakes are just.. disgusting. So lets say if one is caused because I was groomed, another one is caused because I was lacking of social skills. But I don't know if I'm still attracted to 14~16 year olds... I'm scared if I do. I think I'm an ap*ebophile and is also having pocd Lets say the thought "he doesn't look 11" is the reason why I'm not. But it's disgusting. Doesn't look 11 doesn't mean it's exceptional..
please44I
- Date posted
- 24w
Pocd (again)
I know I'm not attracted to children, there's no proof I am and no indication that I am. Yet why do I still get these sexual intrusive thoughts? Why do I still feel so uncomfortable? Why do I feel disgusting, distressed and confused when I get them? Why do I get them in the first place yet I still don't feel anxious enough? I'm really confused about this. I'm not going to do anything to a child or think of a child that way yet at the same time It gets all over in my mind. Is it just me like uncovering some attraction to children that was buried and where would it even come from I've always been attracted to men that are older than me (not like grandpas or something but 1-6 years older) so why the hell am I even getting these thoughts now? I'm genuinely so confused and I don't want this to happen. It feels I'm betraying everyone especially myself
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